pureblood.

t h i r t y

"Your really sweet you know that?" I say with a smile.

He smiles back at me and looks into my eyes. "I'm being serious. He manages to score with the prettiest girl in this bloody school and he is already fucking it up."

"Well there's nothing I can do about it. It's not like I'm his girl." I say with a sigh.

Saying these words makes reality hit me. I've just lost my virginity to someone who might not even care about me. How could I be so naïve to think that he wanted me for anything more than sex.

I look back over at the two and Malfoy is now looking over at me. He isn't even paying attention to Parkinson anymore even though I could see that she's still talking. He smiles at me and then looks down at the ground when he notices me looking back at him.

"You do like him don't you?" Blaise says with a sigh.

"Yeah. I do." I sigh back at him. I can't deny it anymore. What use was me saying that I didn't like him going to get me anyways.

I didn't know whether I'm going to break down or kick off. I could feel the anger welling up inside of me but it was coming out in tears from my eyes.

I look at Blaise and he can see that I am starting to cry. Fuck. "Are you okay?" He asks.

"Yeah. I'm fine." I lie. I start to walk away from Blaise and back over to the entrance of the tent. I couldn't let anyone see me cry. I don't want anyone seeing me weak.

I walk out of the tent and the pitch is now filled with people. I manage to get to the tower without anyone noticing that I was crying. I pull back the fabric that covers the tower and climb over the wooden beams. I could feel myself tipping over the edge.

The line of trees that form the front of the forest face me as I get out of the tower. I instantly turn around to see if anyone had followed me. Nobody has.

I get to the tree closest to me and let all the tears out. I could feel the water rolling down my cheeks and chin as I uncontrollably sob. My legs fall weak as I collapse on the grass and dirty on the floor.

I hear someone coming out of the tower so I put my hand over my mouth so no one could hear me.

I look over and it's Malfoy. With Parkinson! You have got to be kidding me. He holds out his hand to help her out of the tower the same way he helped me out no less than a hour ago. They don't notice me.

"Since when did you become a gentleman?" I hear Parkinson say as he helps her out.

"What you on about? I've always been a gentleman." He says with a smirk on his lips. "So why did you bring me out here anyways."

Parkinson leans into Malfoy still holding onto his hand. She lifts his hand up and puts his hand on her waist. "Don't act like you don't know." She says looking up at him.

Malfoy doesn't move his hand off her. He looks down at her with the same sexy smile he gave me this morning. "I don't." He replies.

She leans even closer to him and kisses him. He doesn't resist. He pulls her in at the waist and embraces her.

I freeze in shock as I watch them kissing. I almost feel numb. I'm devastated but not surprised. I knew that Parkinson was pathetic but I thought she would have a little bit of respect for herself. The boy cheated on her. With me.

Once a cheat always a cheat comes to mind. What was I really expecting? For him to have sex with me and not look at another girl again. I'm an idiot. A massive idiot.

The kissing starts to get heavier as Parkinson starts to unbutton Malfoy's shirt. I want to get up and walk away but I can't. I wanted to feel the pain so I would remember that he is a awful person. That he should never get a second chance with me.

"Stop." I hear Malfoy say as Parkinson kisses him. Parkinson doesn't stop. "Fuck me stop it!" He shouts at her as he pulls way from her.

"What's the problem, Malfoy?" Parkinson huffs as she rolls her eyes in irritation.

"There's something in the forest." He says looking straight at me. Or was he looking at the trees.

Parkinson looks in the same direction as Malfoy. "I don't see anything." She says with a scowl.

Malfoy starts to step closer to the trees and closer to me. I couldn't let him see me. I try and stay as still as possible and hope and pray that he doesn't see me.

Parkinson grabs hold of his arm and pulls him back to where they were standing before. "There's nothing there silly. It was probably just a unicorn or something."

He turns back around and faces Parkinson again. "Yeah. Probably." He says as he glances over his shoulder one last time. "Let's get back to the party. Everyone's probably wondering where we are."

He holds her hand as they walk back over to the tower. He doesn't let go of her hand until he gets into the tower. He turns and looks back out at the forest before pulling the fabric back over the wooden frame of the tower.

He looked straight at me, but he couldn't see me. Or maybe he did see me and he didn't care. Either way, it doesn't make a difference. He still kissed Parkinson. He still hurt me.

Fuck him. I hated him. I hated him even more than I hated him when I first met him. I wasn't upset anymore. I was angry.

I pick myself up off the floor and brush away the dirt from my dress. I pull out the small mirror that I had put in his leather jacket and look at myself. My makeup isn't smudged but my face is bright red and my eyes are bloodshot.

No one hurts me and gets away with it. I put the mirror back into the pocket of his stupid jacket and walk back over to the tower.