Ask me Three Things (tododeku)

How to reject your friend

Warning:  this chapter will talk about something that might be a bit personal to people reading this. There will be no self-harm of toxic thoughts, just bringing up a bit of a scary idea.  Especially for people of the LGBTQA+ who fear having to deal with something similar, or already have.

Conversion is unacceptable, and even if someone's lifestyle or mindset is different then you're you should never try to change them.  Even if religion is involved.  It is sick and cruel.  

And though the thought process that'll be mentioned in this chapter isn't directly about homosexuality or transgenders, it's something I had to deal with as an Asexual. It was something I never expected to happen, especially since it was someone who I thought was my friend.  And yes, it's scary.  I won't go into detail, but if you're reading this and don't believe Asexuals are real, or that they'll change later, or that you can make an asexual change, get out. I don't want your views on my story, and I don't want you on my profile. 

I won't bring it up as directly asexuality or about aromantics, it's mainly about the idea in general. And that goes for other sexualities and gender orientations.

Please enjoy the chapter, sorry for the long warning. 

Midoriya was no one to snoop.  He would never invade Uraraka's privacy.  And even though he never checked her phone, he was so positive he knew who anonymous was now.  It all made sense. 

1.  It had to be a girl.  The only guy in his year he'd met and suspected was, would be Aoyama.  But Aoyama's way of showing that was through cheese and staring. 

2. Uraraka was very close to him and was rather touchy too.  No, not in a sexual way.  Of course not!  He just never thought much of her latching onto his arm and hugging him randomly as a sign of affection.  They were just friends, he thought.  At least until now.

3. The Anonymous person seemed to admire Midoriya a lot, and he could ever only remember Uraraka showering him with compliments and admitting she aspired to be just like him.

And the thing is, Midoriya loves Uraraka.  But not like that.  Midoriya had never been "in love" with someone before.  He'd simply never held that type of attraction.  But he could never tell anyone that.  It would make him sound like he was heartless, or emotionless.  Which he swore he wasn't!  He just found pro heroes and training more interesting.  Hobbies were a better waste of time than, "love"

He should have said something about this to Uraraka before.  She was his best friend, and so was Iida.  They'd understand, and maybe she wouldn't reach out to him anonymously and start-up these twisted feelings within Midoriya.  

But saying something about it would start up a rumor possibly, or maybe they'd purposely try and "fix" him.  Midoriya didn't know why he had this fear about it.  He didn't even know where he'd gotten the idea from. He trusted his friends blindly because they were worthy of trust.  He knew they'd never want to hurt him, but that thought always lingered in the back of his mind.

He could imagine telling someone, or just coming out with it as if it were a weight on his chest. And then in return, being touched in certain ways he never wanted, or ever WOULD want. Sending suggestive pictures, videos, and gifs, in his DMs, or maybe something that was straight out inappropriate and exposing.  And then they talk, and the promise that they'd fix him would haunt Midoriya. And it never even happened to him.

So he didn't tell anyone.

And now he was faced with something he didn't want to do.  He didn't know-how, and he didn't want to break the girl's heart. But what else was he supposed to do?  He could have prevented this but he just simply didn't think anyone would have felt like that for him.