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𝚂𝚌𝚊𝚛𝚜

𝙵𝚕𝚞𝚏𝚏/𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚜𝚝
𝚆𝙰𝚁𝙽𝙸𝙽𝙶: 𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏 𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚖 𝚜𝚌𝚊𝚛𝚜, 𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚖 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚊𝚕 𝚊𝚋𝚞𝚜𝚎, 𝚏𝚕𝚊𝚜𝚑𝚋𝚊𝚌𝚔𝚜
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i've run into a problem.
my best friend, wilbur, wants to go swimming in the empty community pool.
he's never seen me in a bathing suit and i wasn't planning on letting him see me in one but i owed him. i had scars on my thighs, arms, wrists. i don't know if he's ever seen them but he's never mentioned them to me so i assume not.

i put the tight black one piece on and stare at myself through the mirror. i softly ran my fingers over some of the scars, wincing a little.
i grabbed a towel and made my way out of the apartment building.
me and will live right across from eachother.

when i made it down to the pool i saw that he was already in the water. he turned towards me when i placed my towel down on a near by chair. he gave me a big smile
"finally. thought you ditched me again" i rolled my eyes and stepped into the water.

"you think that low of me, will?" i slowly stepped all the way in, looking over at will who was chilling at the end of the pool. the deep end.
he snickered "only for you" i smiled and sat at the steps.

then he got all serious, i knew that wasn't a good thing.
he swam until he got to the part he could stand and he slowly walked over to me, sitting next to me.
he took a deep breath in "wanna talk about it?"
we both stared at the water.
he deserved to know.

i watched from the stairs as my mom talked to my brother. he and his girlfriend are having a baby and he's due to pop out any day now.
'mom— the crib you want to get is $300, you don't have to'  mom laughed and smacked his arm
'anything for you'  i walked down the stairs excitedly.
'does this mean i can get those boots i was talking about last week?!' i jumped up and down, mom scowled at me 'for christmas'  i stopped jumping and my face fell

'christmas? it's January-' she sighed 'we don't have all the money in the world. money doesn't grow out of trees, plus your grades are horrible. have you finished your homework?' my mouth fell slightly and i looked over to my brother who just looked away with a guilty look.
i ran up to my room and buried myself in my bed.

"that's shitty." will spoke up, i nodded but shrugged at the same time "i was selfish. my brother was having a baby and they weren't the best with money. my mom just—" will cut me off

"she manipulated you. you werent selfish, she just played favorites. was that the only time? or did it continue" i shifted closer to him and leaned my head on his shoulder, "it continued. i felt neglected and i felt like a burden" will softly grabbed my hand and brought it from out of the water, looking at the scars. he pointed to one

"what's this one from" his voice was in a whisper. "my ex step-dad, he too was abusive and made me think bad things" he brought my arm up and kissed that scar, then pointed to a different one "this one?"

he did that with all the scars on my arm. afterwords he pulled me into him and allowed me to cry out my feelings.