Silence

I just want to Share this ..

Some of you probably thought this was a new chapter released. But, this is something different.
Yes there will be a chapter coming out later on the day, probably 3 PM EST.

Just hear me out..
What I'm about to say is something personal.
But it's worth to share, since I have a message as well.

It's Something I have been dealing since, 5.

First of all, I love the new people I've found here, social media, or online games.
They make me smile.
Something I don't do all the time.

They make me laugh.
Something I don't do all the time.

They make me feel good about myself.
Something I don't feel all the time.

They make me feel not alone anymore.
Something I don't feel all the time.

So, I seriously have a lot of things happening at home. My parents are SERIOUSLY strict towards me, but not to my brother.
They always thought that my brother was more mature than me, he spends his time wisely, and yah-da-yah-da-yah-da.

There was a whole, reason why I decided to publish a book here. Think about all the things you've read so far about what I've wrote about Hinata in this story.

Let's jot it down.

Hinata was ABUSED
Hinata was LIMITED when it was towards food.
Hinata was always YELLED at, at home.
Hinata used to CUT when he was not feeling well.
Hinata would have NEGATIVE thoughts about life.
Hinata would think about COMMITTING SUICIDE.
Hinata would RUN away from things that was UNSAFE.
Hinata was always LONELY.

I wanted this story to be halftime about, me.

I'm anti-social with the outside world. But the online world, I find great people to talk to..
Like you guys.

i'm literally crying while typing this

The people online have done so much better things to me than the people in the real world.
This was a whole change when I found out about the internet, 6 years old.
I started playing online games when I had the time to.

I'm always busy everyday..
I try my best to spend time on homework, for I don't upset my parents more.
I try my best to make time to my awesome online 3 best friends.
I try my best to clean the house (since I'm suppose to do that everyday).
I try my best to keep up this story schedule.

My friends told me ..
"You can't love anybody else, if you don't start off with yourself first."
"There's always a time for yourself, you just need to search for it."

I never had time for myself, but I always had time for others.
I always had time for myself, but always had time for 'irrelevant' things.

So, my message is,

Even though I might not know you..
Even though we've might not have met..
You may be tired or stressed ..
You may be living with thoughts controlling you all day long.
You may be trying to ignore those thoughts, spending all that time you have.
You may be trying all night even.
Most of us, may pretend everything is fine, when really it's not.
You may just feel so exhausted that you just want to pass out anywhere.

So..
Even though I might not know you,
Even though no one might not be around you,
All I'm asking is for you to stick around.
If you stick around, there'll be a day where the sadness will slowly fade away.

"If you stick around, you'll travel to amazing places you've never been to before."

"If you stick around, You'll hear that one song that'll change your mood, tone, whole life even."

"If you stick around, you'll be holding your world in your arms, watching movies, laugh loudly, and have the best moments in your life."

"If you stick around, you'll overcome your thoughts."

This is a PROMISE, a DARE, and an INVITATION
stay
hang on
you are loved
things will get better

I love you all..
Have an amazing life..
Have dreams come true.
You'll overstep everything negative.
And forget about it.

Good Morning, Good Afternoon, Good Evening, Goodnight, wherever you are.
Have a fantastic day! Talk to you guys again..

🌙 💛 ☀️