To be a writer, you need to have a heartbreak or a loss. You need to know the feeling of losing someone you loved that is still alive. You need to be able to write down your exact emotions on paper. Heartbreak is probably the worst kind of pain because medication can't heal it and nothing can numb it. Sadly, things like heartbreak cannot kill you but it can make you wanna kill yourself. I think the hardest part of a heartbreak is that it always hits one person worse than the other. Having to watch the other person doing better off than you is a pain you can't describe, but once you feel it, oh you feel it. At the same time, you don't wish any pain on the other one because you would never want them to face even half the agony you face.
Writing, for me, takes me to another place. It makes me forget what I've been through and allows me to filter out the pain inside my mind. The mind is a dark place that only allows a few things to light a portion of it. Writing, being one of them, has made me think a bit more rational. You can try to sleep off the pain, but you have to wake up sooner or later. Having baggage can't be good for the soul anyhow. And when you're constantly alone, what better way to waste your time?
With fire in her eyes,
And pain in her heart,
She picked up a pen,
So the healing can start.
