Hold on to Me {ShinAya fanfic}

Epilogue

Everything about her was all I could remember. Her scarf, her blood, her brown orbs, her scars.

They all haunt me and wish me to death. What would have happened if I was careful of my words. If only I wasn't blinded by hesitation. If only I hadn't let myself drawn into Ayano.

But denying that I love her was the only thing I regret. I let myself cover my own eyes to let myself see what the truth was. Ene confessed what she had done and she knows that it was over for the both of us.

I was that moment when I was out of my own mind when she asked for me. I still remember how terrified she was.

"Shintaro." Ene began.

I couldn't utter a word. So I waited for her to continue.

"It wasn't my intention... I was just--I wanted her to stay away from you."

"What have you done?" I raised my eyes to look at her.

Tears were streaming down her face. Yet, I didn't seem to give a damn like I used to.

"I set it up. I made her look bad infront of you. I pushed her to the edge that's why she slapped me--"

"You don't trust me then. From that time I should've listened to her side. What's the point of

She knows that it will take time for us to talk again.

There are if-thoughts burning in the back of my mind again. I was alone in the room, but it seemed like Ayano was watching me. Did she wished that I was dead? If she doesn't, she does not need to worry because I'm now wishing my own death. After what I have done to the girl I love, I wouldn't forgive my own.