Tfios fan fiction

Part9

My eyes close and I see Gus. We are standing in a white room that is clean and clear. Empty. "Gus?" I ask.

"Hey." He replies.

"Am I dead?" I ask.

"No, you're sleeping. I just wanted to see you. I wanted to see how you're doing. I watch over you obviously. Watching what you are doing, how you are coping. I just wanted to talk to you." He says.

"Stalker much." I say and we laugh.

"How are you feeling, without the cancer?" He asks.

"Normal. Free. Fine. How do you know about that?" I ask.

"I watch over you. Also I was the one that made your cancer disappear. Well I had some help." He says.

"What?" I ask.

"I made the cancer disappear." He says.

"How?" I ask.

"Well, up here, in heaven or whatever this place is you're allowed to help your loved ones through their lives. I didn't want you to have our children and have cancer; none of you would have made it. And I wanted you, and our children to have a decent life." He says.

"But it won't be decent without you there." I say as tears start to fall down my cheeks.

"I also need you to keep an eye on Isaac. I'll be with all of you, up here, helping you, but I didn't want you to die, I didn't want our children to die. I also didn't want Isaac to be alone. I want you and Isaac to stick together, help each other, and give each other; and our children a good life. I love you Hazel Grace." He says before coming over and kissing me.

"I love you too." I say.

"Make sure our children know who I am." He says.

"I will. I will tell them about us and the things we did together. I'll tell them everything." I say.

"Good. If you find someone else, don't worry about me, I just want you to be happy, so be with them." He says, tears forming in his eyes.

"I don't want to be with anyone else. I love you Gus, only you. I will always love you. I will never be completely happy without you in my life." I tell him.

"Just, promise me, that you and Isaac will stick together, and help each other, and make sure he gets my eyes." He says.

"We will stick together, but why would I need to make sure he gets your eyes?" I ask.

"Because I wrote a letter, to my mum and dad, saying that they need to let Isaac have my eyes, so he can see again, and help you raise our children. They need a man in their lives, not just their granddads, a proper man, and I was hoping Isaac could be that man. And I don't mind if you and Isaac get together or whatever, just look out for each other." He says.

"Okay." I say.

"Okay." He says back.

"Just promise me that you'll wait for me up here." I say.

"I will." He says. "Goodnight Hazel Grace." He says. "I love you."

That is the last thing I hear before my eyes open and I am lying in my bed. I sit up and look around my bedroom before the tears come pouring down my cheeks. I sit there and think about Augustus and the life we could have had if it wasn't for bloody cancer. I think about the lives our children could have had with him here. I think about what Gus said to me in that white room. I can't be fully happy without him. I love him. I need him. Isaac loves him. Isaac needs him. Our children need him.

I will make sure Isaac gets his eyes. I will make sure that Isaac and I stick together. I will make sure that we help each other. I will make sure that my children have a good life. But I can't promise that Isaac and I will have a good life, not without Gus. I can't promise that we will be happy, or fully happy. I can't promise that we will be all right. Because we probably won't be all right.

But I will try. I will try for my babies. I will try for Gus. I will try for Isaac. I will try for me.