Tfios fan fiction

Part 29

Today is the day of my Gus' and Infinity's first birthday. It has been quite a year. They both said their first words a few months ago, Gus' was 'mummy' and Infinity's was 'book'. I have been constantly been telling them about their dad, and their grandma. I've been showing them pictures and things, so has Isaac. We both still miss Gus, there are times when we just sit there, crying with each other. They say that time makes it better, but it doesn't.

'Okay?' was published and is doing very well. Peter has made a lot of money from it. He gives most of it to me and the twins, though. Apparently they're thinking turning the book into a movie because of how well it's doing. People, both young and old, love the book and are excited for a movie version of it if there is going to be one.

Infinity looks just like Gus, same eyes, same nose, she just has my hair.

Gus looks just like me, same eyes, same nose, he just has Augustus' hair.

Right now Isaac and I are in the living room, getting everything ready for today, it is only seven in the morning but he came round to help me out. Like he does every day. Even if he has work he comes before and after to help me. He's been amazing. So has Kaitlyn, so has everyone.

Lidewij and Bas are now married, they have been for about ten months now. Their wedding was amazing, it was so beautiful and fun, it was great.

Kaitlyn has found a boyfriend, his name is James and he's really nice to her, to everyone. He's a great pick. Isaac and I are single. So is Peter and my dad. I keep telling my dad that I don't mind if he finds someone else, but he doesn't want to. I understand, I don't want to find anyone else, Augustus was the only person I could love like that.

"So, what time is everyone getting here?" Isaac asks before blowing up another balloon.

"About eleven." I answer.

"Great. Hazel, can I ask you something?" He says.

"You just did, but, go on." I say, smiling.

"Would you, maybe, like to go on a date with me?" He asks. I'm shocked. I never expected that to be his question. "I understand if you don't want to. I was just, thinking, that maybe Gus wouldn't mind if you and I got together. He doesn't want us to be alone. And, you're a great person, the twins are amazing, they need a father figure. But I completely understand if you don't want to date me."

"Isaac..." I say, quietly.

"Honestly, if you don't want to date me it's fine. You probably won't ever love me the way you love Gus, I just thought it would be a good idea for the twins to have a father figure in their lives, even though they will know I'm not their dad. But, I thought we could give it a try, I mean we've been together a lot and..."

"Isaac." I say louder, cutting him off. "The twins do need a father figure in their lives. We have been together a lot. You help me and I help you. Gus doesn't want us to be alone, and if I can't be with him then I would rather be with you than some other guy. You've been there for me, to help and comfort me. I don't want to be with some random guy Isaac. I don't want to be alone. I still love Gus, but I love you as well. Maybe not in the same way as I love Gus, but I might love you in that way someday. So, yes, I would love to go on a date with you. If I can't have Gus, I want you, not some other guy that I don't know and who doesn't know me."

Now he looks shocked.

"Really? You really want to go on a date with me?" He asks.

"Yes Isaac, I want to go on a date with you. I just don't want us to go too fast okay." I say.

"Okay." He says.

...

It is now one o'clock and we have just finished opening presents and having lunch. The twins are sitting on the floor in the centre of the living room playing with some of their new toys.

"Guys, we have an announcement to make." Lidewij says.

"We're having a baby." Bas continues.

"Congratulations!" Isaac, his mum, Kaitlyn, my dad, Peter, Mr and Mrs Waters, and I say at the same time.

We all embrace them and congratulate them separately, asking them questions and things.

Whilst everyone is still chatting to them about the baby and other things I head into the kitchen and get myself a drink of water. I feel tears pool in my eyes.

"Mummy." I hear little Gus say. I turn to him and see his is standing by the door. "Why you upset?" he asks, walking over to me, they learnt how to walk a few weeks ago.

"I'm not upset sweetie. I'm just really happy." I lie to him as I pick him up.

"Why you crying?" He asks.

"I'm just happy that you're here, with me. I'm happy that it's your birthday. I'm happy that auntie Lidewij and uncle Bas are having a baby. I'm just happy." I tell him as I sit on a stool with him in my lap.

"Mummy, where's daddy?" He asks. More tears pool in my eyes and one falls down my cheek.

"Your daddy isn't here at the moment, Gus." I hear Isaac say, I look over to the door and see Isaac standing there, Infinity in his arms.

"Where is he? Is he coming back?" Infinity asks.

Isaac brings her over and sits on the stool next to mine, Infinity sits on her lap.

"He's not coming back, no." I tell them.

"Does he not love us?" Gus asks.

"No, he loves you so, so much. He just can't be here." I say.

"Why?" Infinity asks.

"Because, he's dead." I say. I know I shouldn't of, they're only a year old. But they have to know the truth.

"What that mean?" Infinity asks.

"It means that he's not here and he can't ever come back to us." Isaac says.

"Why?" Gus says.

"He had cancer. So did I, but I was made better. They couldn't save him. I'm sorry." I say.

"Will we ever see him?" Gus asks.

"Maybe, one day, when you're a big boy." I answer him.

I place Gus gently on the floor and leave the house, I sit on the small bench outside and cry into my knees which I've tucked close to my chest. Someone sits next to me and embraces me, it's then that I know its Isaac. I cry into his shirt for what feels like hours.

"Everything is going to be okay." He tells me.