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Two Meta Part 7

The next day, Shujinkou sat on the front porch of his house. His mind was plagued with various thoughts and emotions as he continued to contemplate everything that's happened to him recently.

What am I going to do? It's possible that half my friends may have crushes on me. How did that happen? How did I not know? Mali was pretty much saying it in my face and it's very likely that it's true. But how? I didn't really specifically do anything other than be myself. Is it like what the other Monika said? I'm pretty sure none of them just looked at me and thought they wanted to go out with me. So, it's just me?

I'm going to have to apologize to Mali later. She constantly pointed this out to me in her own way and I kept denying it. And I finally discovered it after going on a date with the other Monika. The date at a fancy restaurant where we danced... That was definitely a real date. I'd be in denial if I said that it wasn't. Wait, that would mean that two alternate versions of someone likes me that way, doesn't it? This is even more complicated than I thought.

The other Monika... There are other universes out there and I'm worried about having others feel that way about me. But why wouldn't I? They're my friends and I... This is just like with dad, isn't it? Leading on multiple women at once. With everything else going on, that's the last comparison I needed right now. It's hard enough looking at my friends without being reminded of those death visions. I tried not to make a big deal about it in front of them, though zoning out didn't help. But I'm not only seeing things, it's like I'm actually there. And if I'm zoning out it's like my mind is just leaving my body to go somewhere else. Even that FNAF fangame vision I wrote off as a daydream, that was only to calm myself down. It was just like the others.

Multiple universes, these visions... Things like this seem cool in fiction but when they actually happen to you, it's really scary. You see the protagonist experience these things and you know that means he's in the center and we all enjoy the fact that he's taking the spotlight. At the same time, you think deep down that his peace is being taken away from him. I know hardships make people stronger, but I'm not a fictional protagonist. This doesn't seem like I'm in the center of something big and I'm going to have to rise up to meet the challenge. For all I know I'm just...

Shujinkou closed his eyes as he tightly clenched his fists. He turned his head towards the sky and roared, "I don't know what anything is anymore!"

"Eh?"

"Huh?"

Shujinkou immediately looked down toward the sudden confused voice. To his surprise and great embarrassment, Yuri was standing in front of him with a flustered look on her face.

"Er..." He could feel his instincts screaming for him to break any form of eye contact with her.

"Are you okay?" she worriedly asked.

"Y-Yeah."

Shujinkou anxiously scratched his right cheek. Even though he didn't possess confirmation regarding his epiphany, seeing one of his friends that may have a crush on proved to be more difficult than he thought it would be. He knew he couldn't nor shouldn't avoid them but it was still hard.

"Um, what brings you by?"

"Well..." Yuri briefly looked away as she considered what she was about to say. "You may find this weird, but I had a nagging foreboding feeling haunting me since yesterday."

"Really? About what?"

"Well..." the young maiden anxiously started playing with her hair. "About you."

"M-Me?"

A potluck of emotions conflicted as Shujinkou processed what he just heard. "Wait... Foreboding? Like something bad is going to happen to me?"