RETURN OF THE WIND : Jacob & Renesmee

49. SILENT MOON 🌙

Disclamer:- This chapter states few suicidal methods, which few readers might find disturbing. So, I must tell you this is just a reading material .
DON'T TAKE IT TOO SERIOUSLY!

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EVEN AFTER KNOWING EVERYTHING, THE MOON HUNG SILENT

Jacob

Having heard of standing on the precipice with shaking legs? Maybe of holding a knife tight over you wrist, wanting to slash your nerves open? Maybe standing on the stool underneath a noose you just hung over the fan? Maybe of drunk driving off your car right through the cliff ? Maybe of holding your breath underwater?

Anything!

Now do you realise why do you do that? Because you wanted just one thing that can change your life entirely to be. . . different! But when it's not; you feel like the world had collapsed and then you want nothing more than to atleast have a death. . . .you choose for yourself!

And right now what do you think am I thinking?

No! Not about suicide (I've tried it a lot times) Right now, I'm thinking about her. It hurts so. . .so much to know that I don't have her, even after giving . . .everything. . . my whole world to her, what I feel like is she had everything thrown back right at my face, slapping me tightly for what kind of fool am I?

I'm surely suffering from insomnia; that's the only thing that keeping me awake at mid- night hour, making me turn over - wide awake - on this bed. So I ask everyone who could hear me? What should I do?

Howlllllllll.......

I heard a large shrill howl hit the whole forest, making the goose bumps stand in attention on my arms. But this time, it wasn't just a howl. It was a call! I didn't know if I could even manage to stand, but still without a pause of fraction of second, my legs work on.

I walk out of my room, slowly clicking the door and step for the exit from the house; lunging myself into a wolf.

Howlllll !!!!

I let a loud cry out of my mouth, my head looking straight up to the moon crying, the soft drops of the drizzling rain settle beading into my fur. . . like a pearl.

My head suddenly felt heavy; the disjointed thoughts flooding my mind; filling my head with Seth's thoughts, each one of them more clearer than the other.

"𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚕𝚒𝚎! 𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚕𝚒𝚎" 𝙱𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚊 𝚋𝚊𝚛𝚐𝚎𝚍 𝚒𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚕𝚒𝚎'𝚜 𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚜𝚎.

"𝙷𝚎𝚢 𝙱𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚊! 𝙸𝚜 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚕𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝? " 𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚕𝚒𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚂𝚞𝚎 𝚠𝚊𝚕𝚔𝚎𝚍 𝚘𝚏𝚏 𝚝𝚘 𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚋𝚘𝚝𝚑 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚒𝚛 𝚎𝚢𝚎𝚋𝚛𝚘𝚠𝚜 𝚙𝚞𝚕𝚕𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘𝚐𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛.