RETURN OF THE WIND : Jacob & Renesmee

57. HEREAFTER

TITLE MEANING:
FROM NOW ON. . .

Jacob

I ran faster & faster with shaking legs. My mouth clenched together, as the strong legs rubbed the ground harder.

I lunged myself forward and land myself crashing over Adrian's body and the dried muddy soil, hurling my paws over his chest and then ripped his head off.

I shook my head vigorously. Would I ever be able to get away from the thought about killing. . .him (Adrian)? Will she (Imara) return ever to hunt Renesmee again? The thoughts reverberate in my head again. .& again. raising a continuous ache in my chest.

I know things are bad. And I think how much more it could worsen?

Last night.... forest was the closest thing I had to my home; so I slept here. I felt like there was nothing else left for me in the whole world, not even my own father and not even my own home. . . nor anything.

I thought that if I owned nothing. . .had nothing. . .was nothing!

The darkest clouds in the sky seem bent on hovering over no one but me in the world.

They said she loved me?

Thinking about it hurt me severely; like each time I think about it my heart starts burning into flames. It felt like I amgetting choked drowning in the depth of revenge. Why always her? Why me? I didn't know what to think, or say. . . or do? 

I dragged my feet off the ground yawning gently, and the air was cool against my blazing skin. It wasn't fever I knew; still I felt sick as if my insides are dying to know what would happen now? But is or are getting no answers.

I pulled myself up onto my house porch and my eyes fell over a letter lying on the threshold of our door- "𝙅𝘼𝘾𝙊𝘽 𝘽𝙇𝘼𝘾𝙆" was marked with the bold uppercase letters. I gulped down loudly, with my legs wobbling beneath me gently as I bent over to pick up the note. 

Part of me knew what would it be about. But was achingly scared to find out if it was true? My spirit was sinking lower and lower with each movement I made. I unfold the paper as I read-

𝓙𝓪𝓬𝓸𝓫,

𝓘'𝓶 𝓵𝓮𝓪𝓿𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓫𝓮𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓭 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓱𝓪𝓭 𝓫𝓮𝓮𝓷 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻𝓼 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓼𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮𝓽𝓲𝓶𝓮𝓼.

-𝓒𝓱𝓻𝓲𝓼𝓽𝓸𝓹𝓱𝓮𝓻 𝓐𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓻𝓼𝓸𝓷

My heart bumped loudly in my chest and I looked down to make sure if it would explode any second from now? His words felt like is tearing pinching holes on me & my body. I understood what it meant! Terror ravaged within me.

Not only my legs wobbled now but my whole body. Oh no! No. No. My eyes stuck on to the line, "𝓘'𝓶 𝓵𝓮𝓪𝓿𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓫𝓮𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓭 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓱𝓪𝓭 𝓫𝓮𝓮𝓷 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓪 𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓼𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮𝓽𝓲𝓶𝓮." What was I supposed to do?

I got myself out of my clothes, and burst out into a werewolf trembling hard on my legs. I wanted to go away from it- run away, very far - but my legs would allow me to move an inch. . .right now!