34.ABANDON

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JACOB

Abandon.

Abandoned is what you see, and then you make a cacophony of judgements for why I am so very alone? But let me open my head and soul, so that you can see what being abandoned really does to a human.

At first - there is the screaming of the soul. The begging and the will to do anything not to suffer, to stop the soul from shattering and bleeding so invisibly. Then there comes the breaking of the brain itself. The falling into emotions that push and pulls. The erosion of self-respect and self-control.

And it hurts.

It hurts everyday until the brain stops yearning for love and begins to reject it's cure...for there's is a part of you that will always remember how it feels to be loved and then ripped off from those fills of love...until you are left with no clue of what love is. This transformation is very painful for your heart because after all this you still try to fight it.

You hope to cling to the smallest whisper of a chance for...love.

But then you discern...that you would rather die than try to hold onto and fully comprehend the pain that it would cause.

They say you come out of pain stronger and I guess that's true. But not for the one's who truly unfold themselves for one's gaze; not for the one's who have no clue of how entangled they are into 'her' world. Not for the one's whose heart beats with her heart to remember it's tune and not for the one's when every second the mind struggles to keep itself above when she has made her way and settled to every bottom of each thought and had been responsible for the best and the worst feelings one may have ever had.

"Bottom's up!" Embry leaned against the half-opened door, peering inside. "C'mon guys! Let's bring some life into the party." He stepped in...holding two bottles of Tennessee shots and few plate of edibles I barely even looked at and sank next to the man of the night -Paul who was all overwhelmed with the pre-wedding formalities.

"Em! Thanks God. That was really needed~" Jared grabbed the bottle off Embry's hand.

"Hey_no!"

"Do I hear about stuffing some life into the party?!" There he stood; Liam -a person with sweetest bragging about himself.

Okay_in other words; Leah's last-two-months date

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Okay_in other words; Leah's last-two-months date.

"Liam!" Jared said. "Oh boy! You finally made it?!"

He scoffed. "By all means, an intern surgeon can have the day off for a bachoelerate partyand a hope onto some hot shot movies...at the least." He bit his lip and flunked a pen-drive between his fingers. "We have to kiss a lot of frogs before we find our prince Ms. Steele." He quoted.

"My badddd~" Jared chirped as he reached for the device. "Everyone get yourselves a tight seatbelt because party is gonna drive crazy tonight."

"Heh-" The sweet shop of bragging grabbed his seat beside me.

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