𝐁𝐄𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐆𝐎 - 𝑩𝑶𝑲𝑼𝑨𝑲𝑨

【𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐏𝐎𝐈𝐍𝐓 】

It was daylight.

My sore eyes still sealed shut, I could feel the warm of the sun hit my skin. My stiff body was wrapped within the huge duvet. Unwinding myself from the pillows and covers between me, I reached over to where I remembered Bokuto sleeping.
I patted the bed all over but there was no sign of him.
I lifted my head ever so slightly to glance over, but he was not there. I scanned the room for any sign of him but he was not here.

Did I dream of it all?
Did he come to my apartment?
I thought to myself.

I'm sure of it. How could I have dreamt of that when I could still remember ever last detail of what had happened last night. No, it couldn't have been a dream.

Once again, he enters my life unexpectedly and leaves when it suits him best.

This was what I was to him.
Just an old friend he knew he could go to when he needed comforting. I've been used all my life, by family and friends. It was a common reoccurrence. Bokuto was all I had left in highschool but people change.

Things change.

I slouched my body back onto the bed and layed on my side, facing away from the door and looking out into the window.
The sun was beautiful today, the clouds were glowing in shades of golden and grey.

'creeeeek'.

I could hear my door unlock. The sound of shoes and bags being rustled around.
The door shut and the sounds of footsteps sounded as though they were getting closer.

"Akaashi I know you can hear me".

He came back? Why?
Silence.

"I know you want to be alone, but I've learnt that being alone and dealing with problems alone isnt the way to go" he said in his sweet and soft voice I remembered.

"Please. Go away Bokuto".

I didn't want him to leave.
The truth was I needed him.
I missed him.
I still loved him.

"I've brought you some food akaashi"
"Try to eat something... Okay?".

"Mhm"
I replied in a quiet tone.
Why was he doing this for me.

"I'm still here for you Akaashi"
he replied in a soft tone.

Pulling the covers over my head, I tried to forget everything. Everything that had happened. But he was here. He was still here. Why? It didn't make any sense.

Feeling a weight on top of my head, I felt the covers being slightly tugged at as he began to pull them away. He lifted his body onto the bed and sat with his muscular legs crossed. He layed the bag of food onto the bed and began to open it.
Lifting my head out of curiosity to see what he had brought home, I noticed bottles of water and pre packed buns and fruit.

"Looks like someone's hungry!"

Bokuto chuckled as he lowered his face to look into my eyes. My cheeks felt warm, guessing from the warmth of my face I was as red a tomato.

He shifted closer to where I layed and brought the bottle of water towards my lips.

It was refreshing.

It felt as though nothing occured last night and it was just a nightmare that had been totally forgotten.
I took a few gulps before lifting my head away from the bottle.
His long fingers reached out to wipe away the water that dropped onto my shirt.

It felt strange.

It felt as though our roles had been reversed. I was the one who looked after Bokuto and comforted him. But he took it upon himself to buy me food and feed me.

I hadn't felt this happy in a long time. The longing. The longing of being held in his arms. Being caressed by his large hands. This was what I was longing for. Your love was my turning page.

How I've missed you Bokuto.

Where had you been all this. time?

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