But I'm okay {Stray Kids Spanking Story}

Vice and Virtue {Changbin + Felix} pt. 3/3

// Third POV //

Sure, you could make the argument that Changbin was completely off the hook.

To him, it didn't feel that way at all. Even though Felix said he was okay and he healed quickly, it didn't make the situation less difficult to deal with.

Felix shouldn't have gotten punished. He didn't do anything. Changbin was older than him, what did they say to him as a hyung? That he allows his dongsaengs to get punished for stuff he has done.

That's not fair. Changbin realized that. For the first couple of hours after it happened, Changbin was actually starting to calm down. It didn't start bothering him until him, BangChan, and Jisung went to the studio the morning after to work.

Working with Chan felt different to Changbin, he never really realized how nice the oldest rapper was. He smiled all the time, despite being severely overworked. He always listened to what Jisung and Changbin wanted to say, always gave them advice when he felt it was necessary.

Seeing the leader all happy and smiley just cut Changbin deep in the chest. Chan looked at him like a best friend, the same way Changbin looked at the leader. He really respected Chan, more so than ever and he was guilty, very remorseful.

Chris noticed how uncomfortable Changbin was. He couldn't guess what it was that was bothering him. He just felt distant, Changbin always had the most input into the production.

Should he ask? Make sure he's ok? Of course he wanted to but at the same time he knew that when Changbin when deeply focused on something, he didn't talk much. Han was the exact opposite, you start to notice their little habits after working twelve hours a day with them.

"Binnie? Are you alright?"

Jisung was the first to react. While he didn't approve of Felix's decision, he understood why Changbin would allow him to do it. He had to stay completely neutral though because he didn't want to be punished as well.

Changbin froze in his seat, not expecting Chan to ask him so directly.

"Changbin? Do we need to take a break, you're looking pale." BangChan felt the younger members' forehead.

His mind sped up at the leader's second question. Was he pale? He could his blood pressure rise at the comment. An overwhelming sense of guilt overcame Changbin and made him shake. His hands were vibrating numbly, he couldn't feel any limb on his body.

BangChan saw Changbin's hands shaking and gasped.

That's when Changbin finally just let it out. He couldn't hold any emotion in anymore. He was angry at himself for being a bad hyung, lying and letting himself be heavily affected by what happened. He just wanted everything to be okay again, he covered his eyes with his hands and let out a small cry.

"Changbinnie?" Chris was worried. What was wrong with his little brother?

Changbin knew that Chris would be mad but he desperately needed the leader to forgive him. This was tearing him apart, he had to let it out:

"Oh, hyung! I did it! I'm the one who broke your computer, not Felix. Jisung and I sometimes use your computer while your at the studio. Last night when I came home from work, I was working on production and I accidentally dropped it. It was my fault! I'm so sorry, Channie hyung."

BangChan couldn't understand all of what Changbin said because of his tears but it eventually hit him what the younger rapper was confessing. He was furious, more than furious actually. However, Changbin's tears just made him more concerned than angry, he needed to make sure Changbin was okay before he just laid into him.