My Crush's Bestfriend

》Chapter Eighteen《

A/N Hello hi I'm not going to lie to you, I hate this book. I started writing it years ago at a young age and honestly, I've lost interest in the storyline. I've been in a writing slump for months, even during that last update that I forced myself to write. I think now I'm finally ready to write but this book just isn't what I want to write. AND NO I'm not just going to call a quits on it. I've decided to finish it but I won't be planning it out chapter by chapter, I'm just going to write as it comes to me. I had a general idea of the direction I was going to take this book in and I have decided that the ending will remain as originally planned but that is all I will be sticking with. Anyways that's all for now :) As hinted at, here's a chapter from Alex's pov for your enjoyment. Decided it was time since the book is coming to an end. So enjoy the secrets of Alex Collins!  

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"The shape of you was jagged and weak

There was nowhere for me to stay, but I stayed anyway." 

-Big Red Machine ft. Taylor Swift

-UNEDITED-

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She kicked me out.

What the fu-

"Hey man! What are you doing here?"

I looked up to see the last person I wanted to see right now. Jordan.

How did he get here that quick?

Anger instantly filled me but I tried my best to contain it.

"Hey bud, just returning some books." I lied through my teeth. 

He looked at me sceptically before smirking, "Ha right! Whatever it is you're trying to do, it's not going to work but I admire the efforts." 

He patted me on the back teasingly as he walked towards the door.

That was it. I snapped. 

"Jordan you son of a bitch-" I was cut off by Lexi swinging the door open.

She completely ignored my presence as she greeted Jordan with a kiss.

The sight of her lips on his made my blood boil with rage.

So she can kiss him and not me? That bastard doesn't even deserve to be anywhere near her. 

"You got here fast! I'm not ready!" she giggled. 

I think I'm going to be sick.

Jordan chuckled lightly as he followed her back into the house, smirking at me as he closed the door. 

I clenched my fists as I tried to calm myself down.

Convincing myself to not match right in there and expose that son of a bitch was hard but I couldn't bear doing that to Lexi. It's the last thing she needs right now. 

It broke my heart to see her crying over her father's pending release from prison, I can't be the cause of another breakdown. Not right now at least, but it's inevitable. The truth always gets out. I can try my best to paint myself in a good light but I doubt she's going to want to hear anything I have to say once she finds out.

I shake those thoughts from my head as I try to recall the events of last night. It's clear that it did not happen the way I thought it did.

Amber must have slipped something in my drink when I wasn't looking. 

That bitch. 

It must have been something strong too for me to mistake her for Lexi. She couldn't begin to measure up to her. Everyone, every single person dulled in comparison to Lexi. 

Amber's lucky I don't press charges for this shit she pulled but I'm also not going to just let it go.

I got into my car, speeding to her house with my intentions set.

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Amber was on her way out as I pulled into her driveway. She shoots me a flirty smile as she hurridly locks the front door before making her way to my car. 

"Back for more?" she teases, licking her lips in an attempt to be seductive. 

It took everything in me to not show my disgust. Instead, I simply tilted my head to the passenger seat, silently instructing her to get in. 

She was barely in the car before trying to attack me with her lips, her hands wrapping around my neck. 

I pulled away, her touch making my skin crawl. Her touch that I once enjoyed, now made me want to scrub at my skin where she touched me until it bled. 

If I'm being completely honest, I haven't enjoyed her touch in a while. 

More specifically, I haven't enjoyed her touch since I had a taste of Lexi's.

Since that night at the party. Since the kiss I claimed was a mistake. The kiss I insist meant nothing when in reality, it meant everything. From the time my lips touched hers I knew no one else would make me feel the way I did at that moment. 

She sunk her claws in me at that moment, she ruined me for every other person without even knowing it and I hated it. I hated it because I didn't deserve it. I didn't deserve to be hers. I didn't deserve to be in her arms, much less her heart. Not after what I did to her. 

I've been using Amber ever since. She gave me the release I so desperately needed after every interaction with Lexi. She was a distraction I gladly welcomed. I used her and I think deep down she knew it. She knew what we had was physical, any feelings I had for her left as quickly as they came, and she used me right back. Hell, she even cheated on me openly so am I really that bad of a guy for using her? 

Looking back now, I can't even believe I once had feelings for her. I can't believe how blind I was to her manipulative ways.

Well drugging me was the last straw. I mean really? She didn't need to drug me to get into my bed she knew that but she felt me becoming distant. She felt me losing interest in her. I spent significantly less time with her recently. My time, and as much as I hate to admit this, my mind, have been preoccupied with everything Lexi. I'm not excusing her actions in any way but I understood. This was Amber's last attempt, a very desperate one, to rekindle what we had. The bitch is clearly deranged. 

I must have been lost in thoughts for longer than I realised as she tried to wrap her arms around my neck again to gain my attention. I pushed her off, a lot less nicely this time, causing her to glare at me in confusion. 

"Amber I know you drugged me last night." I stated as nonchalantly as if I just told her the weather report. 

Her eyes widened with shock and maybe even guilt as she fumbled to explain herself. 

 I held a hand up, cutting off her ramblings, "I don't care why you did it and no, I won't report you, even though I should. However, we're through. For good. I don't want to see you again and I don't want you anywhere near my friends either. Stay away from me or I might change my mind about the police report and maybe even throw in a restraining order to the mix. Now get out my car." 

Damn, that felt good and was definitely way overdue. 

I smiled at her sweetly as she got out, making a point to slam the door shut behind her. 

"One more thing," I called out as she walked away, "text me the address of the person who sold you the drugs. Oh and delete my number after you do." I may not want to report Amber because of her stupid decision but whoever's selling those drugs deserve some time behind bars. 

She shot me one last glare, raising both hands and flashing me her middle fingers.

Classy as ever. 

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