Shut Up |Remus Angst|

💊Sixteen💊

Despite trusting Logan to make amends with Thomas, remus couldn't help but follow up the stairs after a couple of minutes passed. He needed to make sure that Thomas was genuinely going to be ok.

He sat down and leaned against the bedroom door, listening in on what the two in the bedroom were talking about.

"I-I didn't m-mean to h-hurt him.."

"It's ok Thomas, he's safe now.. You can't turn back the clock but you can change your fate by making better decisions.."

"H-he h-h-hates me.."

"Thomas, I'm going to be honest and straightforward, alright? Remus doesn't have the ability to hate anyone. He can't hold grudges either. What he can feel towards someone is fear and that's what you're experiencing; his fear of you. He can't lie either, due to him being the only blockage from you receiving the horrid thoughts that cloud his mind. He doesn't want to give you thoughts, Thomas, but that's part of his role. Just like Janus doesn't like to lie but he does to keep you safe."

"...s-so I r-really am the i-issue.."

"What I'm saying is that you shouldn't judge a book by its cover, Thomas.. Remus loves you just as much as he loves everyone else. His heart is metaphorically too big for his body and what he feels inside.."

"H-h-how c-can I f-fix th-this..?"

"Personally, I'd say stay away from him because you've done enough damage. However, my advice would be to try and include him in things and genuinely care about his thoughts. If he jeeps them in for too long, he'll end up having an episode."

The room was silent as Remus listened. His eyebrows furrowed as he couldn't hear anything. Then he scampered backwards as the door opened to reveal Logan standing there.

"My suspicions were right. Would you like a turn at comforting him?" Logan asked as he squat down in front of Remus. The Duke hesitated for a moment before nodding.

Logan helped Remus stand up and guided him into the bedroom. Remus hesitantly sat next to Thomas on the bed and gently held the host's hand. Thomas looked up at him in shock, giving the Duke's hand a gentle squeeze.

"I-I-Im so–" Thomas started, only to be shushed by Remus putting his finger on thomas's lips. Remus shook his head, hugging Thomas to show he forgave him. "I-I-I do-dont des–"

He was once again shut up by Remus. This time was because Remus placed his mask covered lips on the other's in an indirect kiss sort of way.

"St-stop it. Y-you deserve to b-be forgiven.." Remus murmured out, hugging Thomas once more.

Thomas couldn't stop the third wave of a breakdown as he hugged Remus back and buried his face in the dukes neck. Remus rubbed the sad bois back, his eyes showing his sadness since his frown couldn't be seen from behind his mask.

He gave Logan a look that said to get something to hydrate Thomas. Logan nodded and went over to Remus to kiss his head before walking out of the bedroom to get Logan a drink. Thomas found himself on Remus' lap with the Duke's arms wrapped around him protectively.

"Remus doesn't have the ability to hold grudges" Logan's words echoed in Thomas's mind. He had pushed the Duke to the point of sewing himself quiet and yet.. Remus was still taking the time to help Thomas calm down. He never meant for Remus to take him literally! He never wanted Remus to silence himself!

But those were excuses.. Remus didn't deserve to be harmed and that's exactly what Thomas had done; harm him.

"I-Its ok, Th-Thomas.." Remus murmured as if he knew what Thomas was thinking about. And he did; intrusive thoughts were part of hid job and he knew every dark thought Thomas had. "I-I fo-forgive you.."