Sign of the times H.S.

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Ruby Abby Lillis

"Dear Nico... Love Aki" Finally finished a chapter for my book. In this chapter it's about a letter one of the main boys wrote. I showed it Harry right away and he was surprised. Again. He liked my writing style. The way I express things into words. How I go in detail with everything. I worked on this way too long which he seemed as normal for a good book. It was the next day I finished the chapter since I gave all my ideas in there. Harry made me bacon and eggs. For him too even though he's not really in the mood to eat. He said he'll eat for me and smiled. I'm glad I'm seeing him smile. It means the world to me. Like we are soulmates. In a platonic way obviously. I couldn't imagine being in a serious relationship except it's with marriage. Something like my mom and dad. One partner your whole life and if someone dies you never have a partner again. Never flirt with someone or just be like you were around your partner. It sounds so romantic and the only thing I would accept. Yes, I have been in some relationships because I thought it was cool having multiple boyfriends. But I dont care about that anymore. I would date anyone that loves me back and would do what I just said. Just having a beautiful family. Oh but I would definitely adopt children because I don't like to have sex. I am probably.. what's it called? Oh asexual. I could never do that not for even money. But I have Harry and he would never do anything to me that I wouldn't do. He's moody but supportive. Like an angel. An literally angel. Some angel that watches over me and helps me 'find' my dad a.k.a. help me live his dream for him. Sometimes I think this is all a dream. Harry is not real. I'm not really. I dont know why but it comes up in my mind all the time. Just everything is not real. Time is an allusion. My friends never existed. I never existed. I'm just a mindset. It really makes me go all deep talkish. I could talk about this for hours. Like I know that I always have to ask my mom about my childhood because I can't remember it. Maybe it has to do something with that.
But that..
That wouldn't happen.
Otherwise I would think if something else. Who would think about such stupid things when you have so much stuff you can think of. Like my book. The thousands of letters I have to write. The way I would love if a director texted me taht he would like to meet up and make a movie about my book. A book that turned out to be about a gay relationship. Something TV doesn't like to show for some reason. Well they do in some parts but not everywhere. One of the many reasons to hate this reality. They aren't homophobic but always post about happy straight couples and sometimes gay couples but when they are there it's just depressed kids wanting to have 'fun'. I hope more will happen about that in a good way..

"Hey Rubs. I'm going on a walk wanna come?" Harry bursted into my room. Rubs? Cool nickname I guess.
"Sure haz" I answered
"Haz? Never thought this would be a nickname for me. You could also call me hazza then."
"I just tried to mock you when you said 'Rubs' which sounds like ribs."
"Well I like the new nickname. I could call you mrs. Lillis if you want."
"No hazza. I prefer 'Ribs' " I said the Ribs sarcastically and stood up and went to the door.
Harry followed me and took me to a childhood place of his after the very little walk. He showed me around and told me every little detail. He gives me a lot ideas for books I could write. Hmm 'sign of the times' would be a good name. It's one of the songs I wrote. Harry helped me write that song while we both were bored. "Just stop your crying it's the sign of the times.." Harry started to hum the song just as he could read minds. We really are soulmates. No one can say anything against that. Me, him= soulmates. No deep connection could beat us.
I now started to sing to but I didn't hum I sang. He then sang with me and Oh god I fell in love with that voice.

We had a really fun evening. It was one of the best evenings we had until now. There will probably be lots of good ones but I like this one a lot. I got a lot book and song ideas. Me and Harry sung our song. I fell in love with his voice and I finished a chapter for my book. That's it for the night. Just a salad and I'm gonna sleep. Maybe even read something before sleeping. But that's it for now...