treasure imagines.

doyoung ⤳ feelings

feelings ;
chae sua as yourself

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; in which you're in love with your long time best friend but you don't know if he feels the same way

requested by @chanskids
[ request box status: open! but i'm slow with writing rn due to school! ]

"do you really not know how you feel still? i mean it's been a few years and you're still keeping this in the dark?" my friend, jaehyuk, was with me as we were doing homework together in the living room.

"i can't tell him! i really can't! it's gonna ruin our friendship."

"so you're not gonna tell him at all then?" jaehyuk sighs. "you know sua, at most times, it's better for you to tell the truth in these situations. even if you get rejected, so what? he should be able to stay friends with you."

"but will i be able to stay friends with him, that's the question..." i tell him. jaehyuk realized i had a point and he continues to think of more ways to convince me about my feelings for doyoung.

it's been years. specifically, it's been about 3 years of my feelings for doyoung being on and off. sometimes, it seems like he has those some feelings for me but at other times, it doesn't because he acts the same way towards others.

i never know what to do and because he's my best friend since middle school, i don't think i wanna risk losing the long friendship we had over stupid feelings i'm not even sure about.

"look, i've seen junkyu and mina go through this exact same thing. junkyu was conflicted because he didn't want to ruin him and minas friendship and i'm sure mina has told you the same things you're telling me right now."

"and your point is? junkyu and mina didn't even end up together even if they both knew they had a thing for each other."

"ok i'm not telling you be like them and keep in your feelings inside forever, but i'm telling you about them so you don't act that way. like yes they're still friends right now, but look? they both regret it deeply because it's already too late for them."

"how will you know when it's too late..." i wonder.

"you'll know when the moment comes... trust me. you don't wanna feel that moment." jaehyuk sighs as he comforts me. "we should really go meet up with him now, he's probably been waiting long at the convenience store."

"i don't know what i'd do if you weren't my roommate, jaehyuk." i sighed in relief and got up from my position.

jaehyuk and i get up and clean up our workspace. after cleaning up a bit, i let my mom know that i left her some food for when she visits to our place later with jaehyuk's mom.