Bahadur (Watties 2022)

Chapter 16

Updating 2 chapters tonight

I've also changed the name of the other force to the Ravens (Coway's)

I've been at home for 3 days now and I feel sooo much better, ya Allah.

Mum and dad have continually spoiled me rotten. They literally have not allowed me to do anything on my own. I can't say I hate it for almost a month I've done everything alone, it ruined my health and I swear I was starting to look like a damn stick.

Since being home I've gained weight and regained my health enough to start a war.

Vladimir's abhorrent behaviour won't continue and I won't become weak.

There's not much I can do but there's something. I will get these men of my land if it's the last thing I do Allah, my people will be free.

I don't understand why it's so hard to give people freedom. Why do places like Kashmir, Palestine, Afghanistan have to suffer because of the jealousy and greed of others.

They call us heaven on earth and I agree. Kashmir is so utterly beautiful I would do anything to keep it this way. My life means nothing in the grand scale of things and if I must give it up for everyone else I will happily do so.

I will grant them the freedom we have been dying for for almost 60 years now.

There's something up with Vladimir, 2 weeks ago he would scowl at the sight of me now his face remains blank. The hatred isn't as visible, still there but barely visible.

I cannot deny the fact that he made my body react, a sinful reaction but a reaction. I cannot deny the fact that bad thoughts pop into my head. This is all wrong. He's ruined me.

Vladimir's playing with me. This is a game. Like he said he just wants to have sex with me, nothing more nothing less. I'm nothing more than a body. My heart drops everytime I think of that encounter, me screaming marry me was a reflex but I didn't expect such disgust.

Maybe a chuckle. I'm disgusting aren't I, I make people sick. Back in England it was the same, no man tried to befriend me for the sake of friendship, I always felt an ulterior motive.

They don't care for me the lust takes over and controls them.

Ya Allah protect me from these men. My husband is the only one who shall receive everything from me not this coloniser.

" Inaya I'm going to bed, don't stay out too long" ama mumbled sitting up from the Khatt, nodding I glanced back at the star filled sky.

If only I could be up there, away from human beings and away from him.

I'm still worried that mum and dad haven't said anything. Vladimir manhandled me a few times in front of them yet they've not mentioned it. They aren't too strict but contact with men is the one thing they've always enforced.

Maybe when they leave I'll get a real lecture, or maybe they understand I have no choice.

Still worrying.

Sitting up on the Khatt I ran a hand through my curly hair, gosh I don't know how it it's definitely grown within the past month.

I was about to lay back down when there was a knock on the gate, ya Allah who would come here so late. Grabbing my scarf I hurriedly put it on.

" who is it" I asked worriedly, seconds later I headed Ivanov's gruff yet gentle voice.

I quickly ran and opened the gate.
Ivanov was stood nervously glancing around. He's probably doing this without Vladimir's permission.

"Hi" I said excitedly, he smiled at me relieved.

"I just wanted to check on you" he mumbled, aw he's adorable. Nodding my head I motioned for him to come in but he declined.

He took a step back with a smile ready to leave but I immediately stopped him, I need information.
" Ivanov stop"

" yes"

" can I ask you something"
He nodded coming closer.

" is he going to kill us when the oil is taken?" I asked fearfully, this is the one thing I'm afraid of, I don't want anything to happen to anyone.

A solemn look took over his face, no.

" I don't know"
Ya Allah, he's going to kill us.

"Inaya I don't know, all I'm going to say is if he doesn't someone else is going to try"

" what do you mean, who"

" I can..."

" please Ivanov!" I whisper yelled anxiously.

" A gang who calls themselves the Coway's, so Ravens heard about the oil if it wasn't us it was them " oh God, what the hell is going on. The Coway's, the fricken Coway's. They're a large gang in Pakistan who are disgusting and greedy, they've killed and hurt so many people for funny yet they've never been caught.

Coway's means Ravens, they chose that name carefully.

As well as murder they spread a false narration of Islam, in the village where they're very prominent they've forced the women to wear niqaabs and don't even let them out.

Rumour has it that they work for Pakistan and carry out they're dirty work but who knows.

My body began to feel weak as I leaned against the wall. Ya Allah I don't know what to do.

" I'm sorry I have to go" Ivanov said before quickly running away.

I was unable to say another word or even stop him from leaving.

Excuse my language but we're fucked.

We're really fucked.

I have to do something now.

Vladimir's said they're leaving in 2 months, then we're going to be trapped again. These guys are bad yes but the Ravens are a million times worse.

They're going to corrupt our youth and make them believe in a false idea of Islam, make them follow culture over religion.

There's so much in Pakistani and Kashmiri culture that is culture but portrayed as religion, it's scary to think that could happen again.

People think it can't because we're smarter but in reality they're not smarter, just more aware. We can be aware but still not care about the issue.

I'm aware a lot of cultural practices ama brags about wanting to do on my wedding is not Islamic, I'm aware mum wanting to go to a Darbar is not Islamic.

I've tried to explain it to them but again they're following the religion of their ancestors. They refuse to believe they're wrong and it scares me.

Something specifically spoken about in the Quran, specifically warned against.

If the Ravens come now, 2 generations later our children may follow their twisted idea of Islam instead of what it really is.

The Russians till now haven't stopped us from being Muslim, surprisingly Vladimir allowed everyone to pray. Separately though.

" puthar come inside" aba mumbled pushing his head out of the door.

Locking the gate I headed inside.

No more excuses I have to do it.