My Worst Mistake {JJK}

Chapter 30 : The Confession

* Check Jinyoung's pic up there.
So cute, isn't he?*

Y/n' Pov - Y/n's home

"Why am I so hard to understand? One day I hate him, the next I just want him close. What's wrong with me mother?" I said while pacing up and down in my room.

" You still love him? Even after everything he did to you?" She asked with a chuckle.

I don't know what answer to give. I am really not quite sure about my feelings. He affects me with his touches and I honestly melt at each one of his gazes. But Taehyung, everytime I wanted to say yes! to that question, he pops up and I'm unable to answer.

" I don't know, I wanna say yes. But just the thought of Taehyung makes me wanna say No!" I answered sincerely. She shook her head at me before talking again.

" What do you feel about Taehyung?" She asked as she pulled me to sit on the bed.

" Taehyung...I don't know but I feel like he's like an angel that was heaven sent to make me happy again. The little crescent that shines in my alley. He made me found myself again, and a better version of me for that matter. He made me stronger. He just makes me happy." I said with an unknowingly small smile.

" What about Jungkook? What do you feel for him?" She asked while I cleared my throat. My worst nightmare, Jeon Jungkook.

" Him...I just feel like I wanna punch his face for breaking my heart. I never seem to get the courage to do that though. His eyes are my weakness. His hold is my end, it is just bittersweet. But sometimes when I stare at his flowers , I just go back to the good old days and ask myself what happened to us. I don't know what more I can say but I just know that, there is something about his touches that makes me feel secure. It's not right to feel this way after everything, but I can't control it." I said as I imagined our recent memories.

" You know what I think?! " She asked with a smile.

" You still love Jungkook but you feel like you owe Taehyung for what he did for you. Jungkook hurt you, but don't you think that's normal in every relationship. There is time of tears and happiness but that doesn't mean you should run away. You also didn't give him time to prove to you otherwise.

Not everything we see with our eyes is worth believing, Y/n. I know what you saw that day, but did you even try to find out exactly what happened that night? Did you listen to Jungkook's explanation? If you did, you wouldn't be here today. The answers are in your heart dear, you just gotta take the right one. If you make the wrong one then three people will be hurt. But if you take the right one you could save two hearts and save the third from receiving pretentious love." She said as she held my hands tight.

I didn't try to find out what happened. I didn't allow him to explain himself. She was also right about everything she said. If I were to make the wrong decision, three hearts would be down the the drain.

" Was this what he meant when he kept on complaining yesterday about how it hurt him that I didn't believe him?"

" I know I didn't do the right thing by not giving Jungkook a chance to explain, but what would it change though?" I asked trying to go back to that horrific day.

" Everything Y/n, I mean you would be shocked by this. That girl you saw , it was that girl he told you about during his childhood...." She said trying to recall her name but I was too quick.