Date someone who is a home and an adventure all at once.
I shared this on my personal fb account on December 2016 from Berlin ArtParasites' page. Hindi ko alam kung anong iniisip ko noon pero base sa date, late na ko nito natutulog dahil sobrang daming trabaho.
Workaholic bitch is me.
I don't know about anyone pero kapag may ginagawa kasi ako, anything really, I give all myself to it. Up to the point that it would exhaust my soul and I would creep back into the darkness to recharge. lol. So I think a 9-5 job is not for me. Hindi ko naman masabi na hindi na ulit ako papasok sa traditional job because we'll never know, but for now magpapahinga muna ako. Because my body begged me to do it. lol. Buti na lang I got to save enough for me to destress and I'm lucky that I got to rest like this.
I'm still in pain, still don't know what this is aside from extreme allergies daw, but I'm working on it. Mahirap sya physically but I think the most tormenting was the mental/psychological part. Cause I didn't think this would happened to me. There were times last year that I thought, 'If I'm dying, why prolong the pain?' I couldn't fucking sleep for a months, the longest was 2 hours a day. I couldn't eat anything other than rice and soup with salt in it because anything that I eat would turn into muscle pains and I couldn't take it. I had hives all over my body and it was so fucking itchy. Sa sobrang kati nya, gusto kong balatan ang sarili ko ng buhay para lang makamot 'to. And it was itching 24/7. Multiple people telling me to do different things(remedies) all at the same time but nothing worked.
I was confused what the fuck is happening to me no one could pin point what exactly this is. Every doctor that I've seen told me this was allergies but why the pain? Where is this coming from? fuck. fuck. this is not just allergies. fuck. I got prescribed immuno-suppressant for it and that shit was like a addictive drug to me. I got to sleep, eat and do things like I used to. Pero kapag nawawala na ang epekto ng gamot, it was hell all over again.
Pero after a month, bumalik pa rin ako sa trabaho. Hahahahhaha! Pota. Iniisip ko kasi yung naiwan kong trabaho at ang taong sumalo noon, baka naloloka na sya. Hahhahahaha! Mahal ko ang trabaho ko pero parang hindi nya yata ako mahal. Char. Hahahaha!
Anyways, fast forward to now, alam ko na kung anong pwede kong kainin at nakakatulog na rin ako. The pain is still there at times, but it's manageable. I resigned on my work so now I'm a bum. Feed me please.
Isa lang siguro ang hindi ko pinagsisihan sa trabaho ko. Nakakatawa no? Cheesy. hahahaha! I met that someone there. My home and my adventure all at once. Nakakatawa kasi inaasar lang kami dati sa opisina at syempre I being myself, I took everything at face value. Hahhahahaha! Unless he talks to me, there's nothing between us.
My friends would tell me I needed someone older than me. They said my maturity exceeded my age by few folds kaya kung mas bata sa akin ang makakasama ko, baka mahirapan ako. Baka ako lang ang magbigay. I needed someone who would reciprocate what I could give.
But that someone was younger than me. Nahirapan ba ako? Wala namang madali. Nahirapan rin naman sya. Cause almost everything that I say was new to him. At kahit sya din naman, he never dated someone older than him. Sabi ko, 'kaya namamangha ka sa sinasabi ko.'
He was indeed a home and an adventure all at once and I don't know how he do it. We've been together for years now and.. it's still the same. If ever I would write our story(di ko sasabihin kung true to life syempre HAHA), It would be the most boring out of all my works but my most favourite one. Imagine an overly introvert meeting an extreme extrovert?
Yes, he gets the ketchup kapag nasa fastfood kami.
Yes, he read Viper. He said he prefer for it to have a series than a movie dahil kapag movie daw, maraming mawawala at mababawasan ng substance ang work. Sabi ko naman wala pa ngang physical/published book, lol.
Yes, he knew what's the ending of Viper 2. he loved the whole book. Hindi nya lang daw alam kung biased sya pero nagustuhan nya daw. lol.
Yes, he was stunned that I have a demographic of my work but was not surprised. He said he learned a lot from me kaya hindi na sya nagulat na nagsusulat ako.
Yes, I still date myself.(before pandemic)
Yes, I still date him too. Lol. (before pandemic)
That's why I'm so fucking frustrated why I'm not 'good' at writing romance. Tinatawanan nya lang ako, kainis. At least may nagpaliwanag sakin on how jealousy works, because I don't understand it. Hahahahaahahha!
At hanggang ngayon, nag-iisip pa rin ako ng bagong penname. I'm open to suggestions!
