Not Born for This World

Chapter 10

Tori's PoV

The sobs coming out of the room across my room broke my heart every night . I didn't know much about the girl in that room other that what dad had filled me in. He had told me that she had lost her parents in some accident. I felt sorry for her every night as I heard her cry herself to sleep. I felt the urge to knock on her door and console her but I knew she needed her space. After we lost our mum ,it had been a lot harder for me that it had been on Shiky. Shiky had her own copying mechanisms and she would leave the Mi Casa only to come back after weeks. It was different for me because I wasn't allowed to show any weakness and I was expected to carry out business as usual. My dad and I had been really close before her death but after,he would easily snap at me at work and even scold me in front of my employees and it had only gotten worse with time. I buried myself in work trying to impress him in every way I thought I could thinking that if he saw how dedicated I was,we would finally go back to the way we were before mum died but it got me nowhere.

Hearing her cry her heart out every night as she mourned her parents' loss, made me realise just how numb and emotionless I become in trying to deal with her my mum's death. I hadn't allowed myself to shed a single tear for her. I just hadn't acknowledged her death and it hadn't help that right after the news about her death my dad had called me aside and given me a long speech on how men are built to be tough,suck in their feeling and not show their emotions at any given time. And that's exactly what I had done that night and the days that followed. It was just a lot easier for me to pretending it never happened although I knew I was slowly dying inside. I admired the girl in that room for trying to dealing with her pain instead of running away from it. I wish I had half her courage.

Tonight on meeting her,I was astounded at how beautiful she was. I recognised that pain behind her smile,it was the same pain I masked away behind my clone behavior. She looked delicate,like a flower. Even though I didn't know her yet, I felt a pull towards her urging me to help her heal. Maybe in helping her,I would healing in the process. And so I made it my mission to make her smile that day and I succeeded. I could see her starting to let loose as we continued chilling at the bowling ally planning her birthday party. I was glad I was able to distract her from her pain for a while,up until Zayn arrived and started being usual rude self around her

I love Zayn and he is my best friend but I know  when he is grumpy he can be the biggest of assholes.

He looked so irritated earlier. Something must be up  with him. I decided to walk towards him in search for an explanation for his little show earlier and ask him if he was okay.

Zayn's PoV

"...yes it's okay. I promise I won't overwork myself...yes i do...Did you already have lunch...finish all of it?Wow I'm glad you are in high moods today. Okay see you at dinner. I have a surprise for your special day next week...Okay see you then Gemma."

I heard Masela talking on the phone. This Gemma...she must be really important to him...one of his girlfriends maybe. Masela was a tough man and he was never one to show affection to others not even with Shiky and Tori or his late wife."She must be really special to him."I thought to myself but then decided it was none of my concern.

I was seated in my office looking over some of the contract when he had walked in and told me that he wanted to discuss something with me.That was before his phone had rang.
"I need you to free up your scheduled for between 7am and 10am.There is some one I specifically need you to train." Masela spoke with finality making me wonder who was this important client since I never trained individual trainees. I preferred training them in groups in order to ensure uniformity and practice.