Lost Stars...🌠 [A JiKook Fanfic]

7. I Understand

A/N's POV

"Wrong move Joon." Yoongi stated as he stood up and followed Jungkook.

Jungkook's POV

I closed the door  as i laid on the bed.

He was right though.

But i was upset at the same time.

I know Jimin hyung's dead. He'll never come back. But why does he have to rub it in?

He kept telling me to forget about him as if that's so easy to do. Some words are easy to say but harder to do.

And in my case, it's the word "MOVE ON" .

I suddenly heard a soft knock on my door.

I was hesitating to open it.

"It's Yoongi-hyung, open up Koo..." he said softly making me stand up and quickly turn the knob opening the door.

"He has a point hyung." i suddenly blurted out as i walk towards the bed.

"Shut up Koo I'm not stupid like him." Yoongi hyung replied as he followed me and sat beside me. "Some people just don't get how you feel. How hard it is for you to do something that seems so easy for them. And believe me when i say i know how you feel." he added.

"How would you know you haven't been in a relationship before hyung..." i replied only to realize that i sounded a bit rude so i looked down, avoiding his gaze.

He sighed.

"You don't need to be in a relationship to understand how someone feels Kook." he replied calmly as he pointed to my eyes. "Just when the tears in your eyes start to build up i can already feel how it badly hurts for you, cause tears become the second voice of your heart when your lips can't blurt out the pain." he added as he patted my back.

Just by his words...

Tears welled-up in my eyes...

I'm glad someone understands how hard it is for me...

How it's not easy for me to forget someone whom i love with all my heart...

"I know how much you love Jimin. Now that he's gone i know how bad the pain feels in your chest. That's why sometimes i just leave you be..." he stated.

"What do you mean hyung?" i asked as i furrow my brows in confusion.

"There are times where i caught you staring at the wind. I know you're hallucinating. Hallucination may sound a bit serious since it might turn you crazy, but even so i let you be in your own little world with Jimin. As if you can feel his presence, as if you can hold his hand and feel his warmth against you. Cause i know how hard it is for you. Losing someone you really love hurts like crazy. I can even notice the small smiles you give when you hallucinate, and those small smiles make me happy. All i ever wanted was to see you happy, so even if it means letting you imagine Jimin your whole life, who am i to stop you, right?" he said as he gave me a small smile.

Tears were streaming down my cheeks.

He was right.

I sometimes imagine this little world where Jimin hyung is with me.

There, i can feel his warmth.

His presence.

His touch.

His kisses that I've been longing for years.

All i wanted was to be with him.

But why does he have to leave so early?

We had promises.

He promised to travel with me after college. He told me we'll discover the world together.

He told me we'll make lots of memories together.

I kept holding onto those words...

Even if i know now that it's impossible to happen.

I guess some promises are meant to be broken...

But he told me...that promises are meant to be fulfilled...

If it wasn't fulfilled...then it wasn't a promise.