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regrets

SCHLATT

"I regret loving him schlatt"

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Cw. slight angst

I recommend listening to the song daydreaming by radiohead !

I had been laying in the same position for what felt like days but was only a mere 3 hours. The pain had just begun to settle, and the loneliness grew from the deepest part of my chest. I was heartbroken, as cliche as it was. I couldn't believe myself, how I had been so stupid, but part of me had known that this was meant to happen.

the boy that I devoted my teen years to, was gone. It was a stupid argument, but the feelings were raw and built up over such a long time that it was hard to stop once it had started, and before I knew it, I was alone, in a trashed apartment.

The images of just a few hours ago played vividly in my mind,
The way he walked through the door and ignored my cheerful voice and the way he spoke so nonchalantly as if I wasn't the one who had been there for him through thick and thin. It pained me, but I laughed through it, doing as I was told because that's just who I am.

Schlatt had yelled at me endlessly for it, but I just couldn't stop. I was a people pleaser, and I knew that, but there was something so overwhelming about making people upset that caused me to be this way. It stemmed from a childhood fear of disappointing my parents, but it was something that i never seemed to grow out of  (a/n: very heavily inspired by my own stupid self).

I could barely feel my body as I forced myself to roll over and grab my phone. I scrolled through my contacts before finding his. my finger lingered over the call button for a moment, as I sat, thinking over my actions thoroughly.

Despite schlatt being my best friend, we hadn't talked in months. I had been forced to cut him off after an argument with my now ex, and I hadn't regretted anything more in my entire life.

The loud tone indicated that the call was going through, and I waited nervously as the ringing continued, overthinking  my decision more than anything right now.

"Y/N?"
His voice was sweet and his thick accent was as peaceful as it always was.  I found myself tearing up at the one word that he had spoken,

"I miss you so much j"
I let out a choked sob, my whole body ached as I did. I was embarrassed, but I couldn't stop the feelings that grew inside of me

"Y/N what's happening? Are you ok?"
I couldn't answer him.
I bit  my lip hard in an attempt to calm my breathing, but the taste of blood soon filled my mouth.

"I'm sorry schlatt, i really am... i don't know what i was thinking"

I could hear the loud new york streets behind him as he spoke
"Y/N what are you talking about?"

I sighed, standing up and walking to the window of my apartment. I could see the glowing street of manhattan for miles, and I adored every bit of it.

"I regret loving him schlatt"
The line was silent for a moment before he once again spoke up

"Is.... is he gone?"

I nodded, despite the fact that he couldn't see me

"Yeah.. he is."

He sighed loudly, and i could tell that he was unsure of what to say

"Can i tell you a secret?"
He agreed, his voice barely above a whisper

"My biggest regret was falling in love with him instead of you schlatt"

The line was silent other than the sound of the New York streets, and i sighed, realizing how stupid i must've sounded to the boy.

"My biggest regret was letting you fall in love with him instead of me"
He ended the call immediately after, making my heart both flutter and break.

I held my head in my hands and mentally prepared myself for the breakdown that I could feel forming in the pit of my stomach. I sat there, allowing myself to breathe when suddenly a knock drew me out of my thoughts. I stood up abruptly, and walked to the front door before pulling it open and coming face to face with the only person that could make this all better

He threw his arms around me, and in that moment i knew i was home.

THE AUTHOR SPEAKS :
I've been watching old lunchclub videos all week, and I can't help but have fallen helplessly in love with schlatt and Ted again, so expect waaaaay too many schlatt imagines (◞‸◟；)

Also my bday is in 3 days !!! I'm so excited <3

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