cold love desire|taekook ff

2:familiar face

"not going away,but to face
reality hurts much"
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no one pov
when the time's coming,even the thickest wall would break,even the tears are brimming and slowly came down towards the bottom floor.

sometimes,the person had to be strong in the light to not be caught a liar,to not been seen as a pity human need to act and take.the wind go strong and even the human will break,it will shatter the once in a lifetime reality.

that's how taehyung looked at himself,a liar.he couldn't tell his friends nor even his brother he was suffering,that he couldn't deal the anxiety rising drastically on his own,he wanted someone to show love towards him but with sincerity and care.

the feeling of getting drunk was by far the truth escape he could find.the feelings whenever he passed out after shots was how he got away from anger,from sadness,from pain.even when the reality came,he took a drink after drink...

he isn't running away,but reality
speak so much "hurts"

without the two loving parents by his side anymore,he couldn't deal being an orphan.he couldn't protect himself from breaking in-front of the mirror.he find himself no solution in the midnight...

story time...
it was currently passed midnight,passed for about twenty minutes when jungkook was supposed to come home,but he couldn't think any less.being home was just the same thing like the night,dark and dull in his point of view.

he was driving namjoon's car towards the older's mansion,also the same house as the stranger here beside him,who was now still unconscious after the accident.

sometimes,jungkook couldn't help but think over and over as to why people love and obsessed going to the club.he was surely an opposite human being,he hated to drink and even dancing the body like a jelly.he worked there because of the good pay he received for the debts,and because of it else well,he had to take it to the maximum time.

"please don't leave me alone"

he snapped out of his thoughts by the sudden spoken taehyung besides him.jungkook didn't show any emotion but he was curious,what was he dreaming about in the midnight and it sounded so vulnerable?and so realistic?

the car stopped on the red light and finally he could take a look on the older.by his point of view,he was looking like a piece of art right now.sleeping peacefully with the thick eyebrows covering his eyes,the sharp pointed nose,the wavy blonde hair and the plump lips on the bottom part.he was surreal to him but that doesn't change that the fact he was whimpering?

"pl-please i-i beg you"

there it was again,making the younger uncomfortable by his pleading in his nightmare or even a dream.taehyung started to sweat and it made some strains of his hair stucked to his forehead leaving him looking all fragile and bleak.

but there's something that made him felt uneasy..the older's crying too in his sleep.

"why are you crying?" jungkook mumbled in confusion.he was aware that it was something about a bad thing happening in his mind but felt like it was a mix of sadness and dejected.

out of nowhere,the older grabbed something that was the nearest to him and held it tightly like his life depended on it,and it was jungkook's left arm.

it surprised the brunette for sure but without the feeling of wanting to pull it away,he let the older had it,to probably did its job to comfort the older which was working from his point of view in reality.there's no scrunched face anymore,it was just a blank face of his that showed the sign that everything was okay.

jungkook sighed and immediately drove back the car after seeing the light turned bright green yet again...

upon arrival...
he pulled the car and parked it in front of the older's huge house,or could we say as a mansion in the neighbourhood.he headed outside and picked taehyung,taking him to the front door bridal style.

the older surprisingly held onto his sweater really tight just like the last time in the car drive.jungkook didn't say anything but he could feel the heartbeat riding through inside.

he knocked on the door and a beautiful old woman greeted his sight with a smile ,but quickly changed into a frowned and wide eyes. "oh my,is that-?" she asked with confusion.

"yes mrs. my boss asked me to take him here" he answered with the same monotone voice,he was certainly feeling tired after driving and really wanted to pass out any moment.she led him to the older's bedroom and quietly tucked him to bed.

"thank you so much young man,what's your name?" she asked while leading him back towards the front door,saying that he needed to go back early now.

"jeon jungkook,jungkook for short"

she crept a smile and waved the younger back while seeing him getting out of her eyesight.good thing was his house only a few minutes away from here so there's no exhaustion on just walking back this midnight.

suddenly he thought about the older,the sculptured face made him felt familiar with it,but he was surely just imagining him as his old friend or someone he met accidentally crossed over.on top of that,he didn't even know the other's name specifically.he shrugged it off and went straight to the door of his.

jungkook opened the doorknob slowly so that he didn't make any loud noice from the wooden material.he pulled out his shoes and sighed in relief seeing his sister was nowhere in the house,the aura and atmosphere told it.

he headed upstairs and freshen up to go ready to bed and closed the eyes.

there's two boys running through the park together,playing hide and seek just like the other kids would do as a close friends.

the little one had to be the one that find the older.as he closed his eyes and counted til 10...

"come on taetae,here i come!"

as he searched and searched through all the places surrounded by the green grass,he couldn't help but cried alone,he couldn't find his hyung for hours...

out of nowhere,the whole surrounding turned black,pitch black,darkness inhaling.the little one turned all over but he just saw black.

suddenly,there's a voice,a cold tone voice saying...

"this is all your fault!"
"if you aren't dumb this won't happen!"
"why did you lie!"
"he left because you lied!"

the little one broke down in tears and hugged his knees tightly,a muttered the same sentence again..

"i had to,i-i had to i'm s-sorry"