cold love desire|taekook ff

3:accidentally art

"remembering the memories
make me die again"
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no one pov
nightmare is an important chapter in everyone's dreamland,whether it's a beautiful sets of love story or a devil past coming through in a blink of mind.

nightmare can be your lullaby to sleep with a sense of enjoyment,but in the meantime it can also produce teardrops with close eye without consciousness.human found it amusing,but some found it nerve racking.

jolted open the eyes with horror is how jungkook's felt everytime these past few years since the accident occurred.the tears dropping down one at a time is making him crazy in salty liquids.a hug won't do anything to calm himself...

because the memories made him
felt like dying over...

he fought it over and over,trying endlessly to end the nightmare hunting him down.but he couldn't fight it over without the feeling of guilt and blame self.that's how he lived up to by now,with misery.

story time...
jungkook woke up in the middle of night,because of one thing he couldn't escape for more than five years,his nightmares.he hugged himself from his knees and putting down his head in between.he cried,just like forever.

"pl-please,it-it wasn't my-my f-fault,i-i had t-to,n-no pl-please do-don't g-go away hy-hyung"he pleaded but the cold atmosphere and also the icy felt like by the air conditioner make him felt worse.this was the everyday routine,he gave up to fight but still have hope that one day it will be over.

after a couple of hours,he finally could calmed his inner self.the rapid breathing and the feeling of anxiety rising thankfully decreased in a middle lenght amount of time.for his point of view,this was the hardest thing to deal whenever new day started,it wasn't the stress about working two times a day,no...

it was the guilt of his inner mind's fault...

he shook everything ahead like any other day and went towards his bathroom.it was now 5:30 am in the morning,the time he usually woke awake by it to go work as an art teacher at seoul,south korea.

he headed downstairs and found his sister passed out on the couch with still the fancy dress on her,and even he was still stepping down,he could visibly saw all the hickeys on her neck specifically.he sighed and shook his head,there's nothing he could do or helped after all.

he headed towards the kitchen counter and grabbed a cup and decided to make a hot coffee for himself before going to work early today.after done stirring the coffee and put it inside his water bottle,he walked back to the living room.

when jungkook passed the big spacious room,he looked back at his sister,lisa.he was debating with himself whether to take her to the bedroom,letting her sleep there or let her be in the couch,because she honestly deserved it.

he sighed softly and put down all his belonging including a bag and the coffee to go pick her up.he gently picked her bridal style and headed upstairs to her bedroom.

lisa's bedroom was more big and huge because it was the master bedroom among all.it was nice to say she had everything a girl wanted in there.

jungkook out down her on the center on the bed and tucked her sister under the comfortable soft blanket,which she immediately snuggled into.before going down,jungkook looked once back to her,and caressed her bangs delicately before saying...