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"If only I could tell them everything, I would. I just can't." Hoseok stared at Yoongi as the guy sat at the grass while looking at the sky.
"If only I could tell them what I want and not what they would want me to want, I'd probably be much more happy now" Hoseok stared with pity.

Awhile ago as Hoseok asked Yoongi if he could stay for awhile, he didn't know it would lead unto this but he doesn't wanna complain.

"Can I stay here for awhile?' Hoseok gently asked as Yoongi gaved him a look full with curiosity swirling unto his dark chocolate orbs.
"No" Yoongi bluntly said as he took his eyes away from Hoseok and looked at the trees instead. Leaving Hoseok to be seen only on his peripheral vision.

As that one word left Yoongi's mouth, Hoseok smiled gently. Making Yoongi furrow his brows.

"You know Yoongi-hyung I really like how you just say what you wanna say. Neither I can't do that" Hoseok said as he sat beside Yoongi who was now looking at him. His irises once again filled with curiosity.

Yoongi being somewhat tipsy, chuckled. His deep soft voice Hoseok had unintentionally missed.

"Yeah, If only I could do such thing" Yoongi said as he started to relax and comfortably sat there, watching the stars as it shined brightly.

Hoseok furrowed his brows and looked at Yoongi, with confusion now found on his melted brown chocolate orbs.

"If only I could say what I wanna say to the world, to everyone, would I feel better?" Hoseok stared at him. Gentleness found in his eyes as he heard more of those deep soft chuckles that leave Yoongi's mouth.
"You could tell the world what you wanna say" Hoseok said and Yoongi, immediately locked eyes with him. His delicate face now filled with painful expressions.

"It's not that easy" Hoseok smiled and nod
"I know"

Yoongi stared at Hoseok. A sudden jolt of emotions filled his insides as he stared and stared. Yoongi never once told someone about this.

He was known as someone who would say what he wants to say but actually no. He was even the guy who filters his mouth so much that every word that escapes his mouth sounds all lie to him.

But would he be seen as a bad person if he tells someone the things he wanna shout to the world? Would it be an issue if finally, just for once, he'd let his guard down and tell someone about everything?

Hoseok looked at Yoongi and smiled at him. A sudden relaxing feeling was being radiated by Hoseok. A feeling Yoongi , right now, really needed.

"The world really is a handful Yoongi-hyung, but you couldn't just stay there and hide. It's much more painful that way." Yoongi knows Hoseok wasn't just telling that to him coz he needs it, but because Yoongi knows Hoseok always felt the same way.

"You shouldn't drown yourself unto liquors just to forget about the mental and physical pain the world is giving you. Coz after you drown yourself into it, it's much harder to come back."

Yeah, it really is. As Yoongi stared at Hoseok he knows Hoseok always felt the same way. Always felt as if the world is unto his shoulders yet there he was. Making Yoongi feel much better.

"The world might be cruel, but if you stay hidden, it won't make anything better" Hoseok looked at Yoongi and smiled. The smile that says 'I'm here' A smile that Yoongi just needed too much, it's overwhelming. Overwhelming how Hoseok just comes right unto him when he needed it the most when he had been ignoring him for the past month.

"All the nagging, the painful words people throw unto you. Don't listen to them. Listen to yourself. Shout it out to the world just once, and I promise you. It would be better"

Hoseok looked at the sky as those words were said. And as he said those words, Yoongi suddenly felt awful. How could he had ignore such wonderful person? How could he ignore him just because he could feel him? When everything Hoseok did was be kind to everyone around him.

"Why are you so good to me?" Yoongi asked. A sudden yet a prepared question Hoseok was ready to answer.

He smiled at Yoongi and sighed.

"Because everyone goes on a rough part of life. And I don't wanna be someone who'd make it much worse? I don't know. I... I just don't want to be mean to you I guess" Hoseok chuckled as he said those words.

He knows that wasn't his answer. He's not mean to Yoongi for he's Hoseok. A guy who'd just willingly make everything and everyone better while he drown unto his own. He's that kind that he doesn't wanna let anyone know about it.

"Thanks" Hoseok immediately looked at Yoongi who was staring at Hoseok with the most gentle smile ever.
"It means a lot" Hoseok smiled and nod.

As an hour passed, Yoongi have been ranting to Hoseok. And Hoseok wasn't daring to stop him either.

"If only I could just walk straight to my parents and say, 'Hey mom I wanna become a producer not an architect' But I can't. Guilt would kill me"

Hoseok listened. He just stayed there, listening to Yoongi as he ranted all the thoughts that we're consuming his nights. He stayed there, not daring to say a word for he knows it's much better to just let Yoongi say it all before he could say a word.

"I just don't wanna be a disappointment." A heavy sigh was heard and Hoseok knows Yoongi is now done. And that he was now welcomed to talk.

"I know it's hard. It's hard to tell everyone your thoughts coz you're scared. Scared of being judged, scared of being a failure. Bet you know what i learned Yoongi-hyung? That if someone cares for you, that someone would let you be yourself. It's hard. I know. I still can't do it myself but nothing is wrong with trying. Nothing is wrong if you'd be you" Hoseok said and watched as Yoongi curled, his hands wrapping his legs and his knees supporting his chin, as he watched the city that was right infront of them.

"Yeah, I'd try" Yoongi said as he smiled. And as those words were said, Hoseok on the other hand took of his jacket and layed it beside Yoongi. Which Yoongi stared at confusingly.

"It's 9 pm, and it's niw winter. I know it's cold, you're shuddering. Use it" Hoseok said as he tapped the jacket.

"No, you should use it. You'd get cold. My jacket is fine" Hoseok chuckled as he whipped his head side by side as a no.

"I can't feel the coldness Yoongi-hyung."

"But, You...You can feel me right?"

"Yes, Yes I can"

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