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TW: depression mentions
At first your depression was just a little annoyance, you knew it was there but it fortunately wasnt as life destroying as others. But then things all of a sudden got bad.
Maybe it was stress from work, maybe it was stress from Roger's work, and maybe it was just general life bullshit. No one could possibly know, not even you. All you knew was your life felt suspended in mid air, nothing seemed to matter, and frankly you didn't care about anything at all. The world could implode and you'd still be there floating in your black cloud of misery, nothing mattered much anyways right?
You didn't know if Roger had notice, it wasn't really on your radar. You kind of hated how all this made you sound like a terribly selfish person, but you didn't have the energy to care.
One day though Roger brought it all to your attention as you were curled up on the couch, "Y/N sweetie, mind if I sit down?"
Sitting up, you moved your legs off the other seats so he could sit down next to you. "What's going on? Something isn't right."
You swallowed hard, trying to think of someway to explain it all. "I-I-don't know."
He gently stroked your legs that were laying on his lap, "It's no big honey, I get what this is like I know it's hard to talk about it."
Rubbing your face with your hands, you finally spoke up. "Just feels like I'm existing yknow? I'm not living a life, I'm just existing. Everyday I have to get up and exist in this life and keep doing it until I die which sounds miserable to be honest."
Roger stayed quiet as he continued stroking your calf, you didn't really know what to say after that. You said everything you needed to or as much as you could, the ball was in his court.
"Oh honey, come here." He whispered, opening his arms for you to crawl into them and you did. Snuggling into his chest and wrapping your arms around his torso, you smiled as you felt his warmth encapsulate you.
Roger's fingers ran through your hair softly. "I love you no matter, and I know that wont fix everything but don't ever forget that."
You nodded your head slowly, "I know."
"I know you're in a lot of pain and life is really shit now, but just know you're strong. You're strong for just existing, existing means so much than people make it out to be."
Blinking away tears, you wiped them off with the back of your hand. "I love you."
A/N: Requests still arent open rn sorry guys, I'm really busy with the holidays
