Lily's Insecurities (COMPLETED)

4. I'm No Beauty Queen

Happy reading, Livers 🍂

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I opened my eyes slowly, blinking as I synchronized with the lamplight. I touched my head, feeling dizzy in it.

"What are you feeling? Is there something sick?"

I immediately turned my head, seeing a handsome boy beside me. His voice sounded worrying, but later when I stared at him, he smiled at me instead.

"I'm really sorry. I shouldn't have left you alone. I-"

"You needn't say sorry. I'm okay." I replied to him as I got up.

"Don't lie." Jayden held my hand to prevent me from going.

I felt as if butterflies were flying from my stomach. He has always been like this lately since Liam and his friends bullied me bluntly. Even when I met him accidentally, he always smiled at me, but I bowed my head as if I hadn't seen it. He also protected me, when I was walking on the playing field side and Liam intentionally threw a basketball toward me.

If he treated me repeatedly, I would hope a lot, and it was ... dangerous.

"Why do you always treat me as if we are close friends?" Even more than close friends.

"We're neighbors, aren't we?"

"It doesn't mean we're close!"

"Am I wrong?"

He made me speechless for a moment.

"No, you're not, but please, stay away from me, I don't need you at all. Thanks for helping me."

"Lily please don't be like this."

I acted as I ignored him, so I moved to go off. But, he pursued me.

"Hey, where are you going? We're not done talking. If you're mad at me, say it! Or... you wanna hit me? By all means."

I kept on walking and ignoring him. Instead of heeding him, I could actually not give a fuck. It would be better, so I wouldn't have any feelings for him.

"What should I do? I'll feel guilty all day. I know I realize I can't deny I'm wrong, and I'm sorry."

"Can you shut up, please? Don't follow me anymore! Don't come near to me!" I snapped loudly, so people stared at us immediately.

"And stop saying sorry." At this time I minimized my voice, then I left him.

Inward, I kept on saying that my decision was right. Don't feel guilty, Lily. You took the right path. However, I actually didn't want to do it, but... arghh whatsoever!

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The next day, I decided to cut school. But I said to my mom that I had a stomachache. Don't judge me. It didn't mean I didn't want to study, but rather I wanted to refresh myself. At least on this day I wouldn't meet Liam. Yesterday's incident caused me a bit of trauma. Liam never bullied me like that before. Usually he just berated me and occasionally pulled out my hair, etc, but he never hit me. I didn't know, maybe yesterday he wanted to show off, making the other people scared of them.

So now, I was lying on the bed. There was no comfortable place except a bedroom. Do you agree?

By the way, I... I was missing someone. Someone who made my day. Someone I couldn't reach. Someone who gave me two options.

What was he doing now? Was he missing me too? In your dream, Lily!

I thought that I didn't have feelings for him yet. But the reality was... I did. It would be difficult, because I knew I wasn't his type. Ugh stop thinking about a boy, your sadness will be visible.