Draco Malfoy Imagines

Trying to forget

I put the radio on as I started cleaning the room. I opened one of the cabinets I hadn't opened in a while and immediately saw the photo album I made in my last year of Hogwarts. I carefully took it and opened the first page. The first picture made me already cry.

It was a picture of me and Draco at the Yule Ball. He had been so nervous to ask me and when I said yes he was so relieved he fell on his knees. It had been one of the most beautiful moments in my life.

Beautiful
Just the way that you would look at me
Was so much I'd never want to leave
I~~, I~~
Keep trying to forget how you were

Beautiful
Just the way that you were calling my name
But without you it won't be the same
I~~, I~~
Keep trying to forget, but you were beautiful

I looked through all the pictures of me and Draco. Each one of them made me cry harder. Especially the last one. It was from the 6th year. The last picture I ever took with him.

It was taken about a month after the school had started. We were sitting side by side near the lake. In the picture Draco was looking at me with loving eyes. Everything was perfect.

Until everything wasn't perfect anymore. Only a week after that picture was taken, Draco started to ignore me. At first I gave him some time, hoping he would come back around. But he never did. He only sent me a letter saying we're over.

No matter what I do, I know that to you
Things will just stay the way they are
Just that I keep, thinking about how we used to be
God, I just hate this part

I closed the photo album, not wanting to recall any of the painful memories even though they already came in to my mind. I dropped the photo album in the sink and took my wand. I lit the photo album on fire. I looked at the fire spreading through the album as the tears fell from my eyes all the way to my cheeks and neck.

Think I've cried more than I had imagined
If this is real take me back to the start then
What I want but I know it can't happen
Baby I know it's already over

The fire stopped as the album was completely burned. All that was left were ashes of our pictures. I ran my hand through the ashes and a sob escaped from my mouth, followed by a scream. I realized what I had done. I had burned all I had left of him.

I don't know how long I cried on the kitchen floor but it was already dark outside by the time I got up. I washed away the ashes in the sink and wiped the tears away from my face. 

"It's not your fault", I heard a voice say behind me. I turned around and saw Narcissa there with tears on her cheeks as well. My tears fell down quietly. "It's not your fault, darling." She came closer to me with her arms open and I immediately ran in her embrace. We both cried in each others' arms for a while. Eventually I got so exhausted from the crying that I fell asleep. Narcissa took out her wand and said something that made my body float towards the bed. She tucked me in. I had woken up but was too tired to open my eyes so it looked like I was still sleeping.

"Darling. I hope you would realize what happened to him wasn't your fault. It was Voldemort's and Lucius' fault. You could have done nothing to prevent it. You weren't even there when it happened, how could you have helped him?" She caressed my hair and sniffled. "Do you know what he said right before it happened? He said he loved you so much and wanted me to take care of you if he wouldn't make it. And I promised to take care of you. Darling, I will never leave you alone. So whenever you feel like you're breaking down, you can come to me. I won't leave you alone with this grief. One day you'll get over it and I'll still be there with you. If you get married to someone, I'll be there to walk you down the aisle. If you get children, I'll be there with you through the pregnancy. And if you buy a huge house with your family, I'll come and live in your attic. I promise to you because I promised to him."