AMBIVALENCE . tsukishima kei [✓]

𝐂𝐇18 : 𝗰𝗮𝗿𝗲𝗳𝘂𝗹 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗱𝗼

* two chapters bc I haven't been consistent lately *

[ third person ]

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Sitting beside Yuuma was beginning to get boring. His words were gibberish, falling on deaf ears. [y/n]'s attention would have been casually focused on the blond in the corner who was smothered by another girl but the two had left a few minutes ago for who knows what reason. [y/n] couldn't put her finger on it but her head was beginning to spin and she felt so tired.

Clutching her head, she stood up and cleared her throat. "Excuse me. I'm gonna outside to breathe."

[y/n] slipped out of the room, sighing to herself when her head grew heavier and heavier. She seriously wondered what was wrong with her right now.

"Come on, Tsukishima! Let's ditch these guys and go back to my place!" The girl from earlier whined as she held his hands, intertwining their fingers together. "We can't do anything with anyone around."

Around the corner, Tsukishima stood with the girl from earlier, trying to figure out if they'd go back to her place right now. [y/n] stayed behind the wall, out of sight and listened to the conversation.

"Hmm."

"I live like two minutes from here. I'll make it worth your time." She grinned, getting close enough that he could smell her perfume.

After a moment of silence, he cleared his throat, "Sure. We can go."

The heaviness in [y/n]'s head grew thicker when she heard those words leave his mouth. The pain started at the tips of her fingertips, traveling all the way up to her chest. Her lips quivered for a moment before turning into a permanent frown.

Not even bothering to look at them, [y/n] turned on her heels and returned to the karaoke room, plopping in her seat beside Yuuma. Her mood had plummeted further into the ground and Yuuma took notice of that.

"You okay, [l/n]?" The male asked, quirking a brow at her.

She nodded. "Yeah. Do you, uh, do you have more of that drink?"

Yuuma smiled, "Of course I do."

[ t i m e   s k i p ]

Tsukishima stood behind the girl who unlocked her apartment door, throwing it open and turning around to face him. He entered the apartment, taking a mental note of how messy it was.

Throwing her arms around his neck, she pulled him close and poured. "I'm impatient. Can we do it already?"

Tsukishima glanced down at her, feeling a strange emotion well up in his chest when he examined her face. They really do look like. He grabbed a piece of her [h/c] hair, wondering how the shade was so similar to [y/n]'s.

"Tsukishima! Come on!" The girl said as she pulled him down, bringing her lips dangerously close to his.

Feeling her breath on his face, [y/n]'s face flashed in his mind, making his grow repulsed with the thought of kissing this other girl.

In a flash, his hand shot up to cover her mouth and prevent it from ever touching his own. He grabbed her arm, disconnecting their bodies quickly. "Sorry, I gotta go."

"What? You were staring at me the entire time like you wanted to make a move and now that I'm making a move, you're gonna leave??" The girl asked, baffled she even went through the trouble of inviting him here yet he leaves her hanging. "I thought you were interested in me."

"Nah...you just looked like my ex-girlfriend."

Her jaw dropped as he walked out like nothing had even happened. Right as Tsukishima exited the apartment and was out of sight, a new person showed up at her apartment, clearly upset.

"So this is what my girlfriend does while I'm out at work?" Her boyfriend asked as he opened the apartment door, having heard everything through the door about her trying to get with Tsukishima. "I really should've known you wouldn't change your ways."

[ t i m e s k i p ]

"Is she okay?" Arata asked as he glanced over, noticing how flushed [y/n]'s face was as she grew more and more unresponsive. "Yuuma, what happened?"

"I think she drank too much. I didn't know she couldn't handle her alcohol well." Yuuma held his hands up in defense then pointing at the door. "I'll take her outside for some fresh air."

Arata opened his mouth to argue but was forced to deal with one of the other girls who had gotten a bit out of hand from drinking.

Hooking his arm around her waist, Yuuma helped [y/n] walked out the room and began leading her to the exit. When he finally thought his little master plan had succeeded, a tall blond appeared before him.

"Hey," He smirked down at Yuuma, reaching out to grab [y/n]'s arm. "Thanks for taking care of my girlfriend. I think I can handle it from here."

"Your girlfriend? You guys aren't dating." Yuuma scoffed, trying to pull [y/n] away from Tsukishima's grip.  "Why would you come to a goukon if you have a girlfriend?"

Tsukishima quirked a brow. "Is that any of your business? Don't you have drinks to drug or something?" The question caught Yuuma off guard, eliciting a smug scoff out of the blond. "That's what I thought. Give her here."

Tsukishima placed his arms under arms, pulling her away from Yuuma who stepped back, preparing to disappear from sight. Unfortunately, Takamitsu was nearby after being called by Tsukishima and caught Yuuma before he could get far.

"I'm so sorry, Tsukishima. I wasn't even aware that Yuuma would be going today. This is literally all my fault. I'm so, so sorry." Takamitsu bowed his head, feeling guilty for putting her in that situation in the first place.

"You can apologize to her later. I'll take her home." Tsukishima said with a small shrug, picking up [y/n] like she was nothing.

Takamitsu nodded. "I'll make sure Yuuma gets what he deserves."

With a brief nod, Tsukishima left and brought [y/n] to a place where she'd be safest. Takamitsu stood there, staring at Tsukishima's retreating figure. Tsukishima wasn't even supposed to go today. Did he go because...?

Upon arriving at his house and opening the front door, he was greeted by his brother who was shocked to see [y/n] unconscious in his arms. Their mother soon followed after, calling over her husband who worked as a doctor and could evaluate [y/n]'s current state. In the end, she turned out to be fine and would just need to rest and drink lots of liquid when she awoke.

After everything was over, Tsukishima said down on the desk chair beside his bed and sighed. Her hair was splayed along his sheets with her body covered by a blanket. She looked so at peace sleeping soundly. Her being in his room made memories flood his mind, bringing back old emotions he had hidden.

He couldn't lie. He missed it.

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[ a/n : IM SO FUCKING SORRY FOR UPDATING EVERY OTHER DAY NOWADAYS BDJDJDJ I KEEP PLAYING GENSHIN IMPACT AND LOSING TRACK OF TIME SO I FORGET TO UPDATE ]