Voltron Hell

AU WHEN MATT DIES

Dear Matt,

I miss you... then again though, we all do. nothing has been the same since you died, and im not sure if it ever will be.

moms been moping in her room all day, and with dad still on his work trip, there isn't much that can be done.

Shiro was sad about it for awhile, like mom, but unlike mom, he acted as though everything was fine, even when it wasnt.

the others didn't really know you too well, but they seem to all be awarenof how thick the air is when your name is mentioned.

i... I really miss you. i miss making snowmen and snowangels, staying up late watching movies and talking, i miss baking cookies and burning them on accident. i miss the picnics we had in the backyard, but most of all i just miss you.

you were the best older brother anyone could ask for and the fsct that you are gone hurts, jt hurts in ways i could have never imagined.

its empty without you, theres no one around to lighten the mood or throw down random facfs even i didnt know.

its lonely, and even when my friends surround me, i csnt shake the feeling. i csnt escape being alone and it hurts, because i know if you were here, if you were alive, then everything would be okay... everything would be fine.

no one would be sad... no one would be hurt... no one would be worried....

everything would just be fine and normal. i didnt know how much i loved that life until the part that made it so amazing was taken from right under me.

ive never felt so broken and no one can fix it, even if i did mention this feeling

i keep to myself more thsn before now. i dont even say random facts in class anymore, and ive been pushed to the sidelines. ive been forgotten, and im fine with thst. i can think about all our memories together even more now.

i can try and be happy, even if i know it wont work.

i miss you, i miss you so much... but i know ill have to move ok soon. soon you'll just be a memory, and this pain will be gone.... but this feeling wont go away. i dotnt want to let go. i dont want to lose the only things i have left of you.

i dont want to be alone.....