yours || xion X leedo

part eight

xion's pov

yeay today is the last day of exams! i am so happy very very happy that i can finally see niki. i'm planning on going to his class by surprise after school to see him.

"dongju, are u ready for the last paper?" hwanwoong asked.

"yesssss of course! i want this to end as quickly as possible. ouh and i'm going to see niki after school so you can go home without me." i smiled.

"ahh okay okay, i guess i'm going out with youngjo then!" he said excitedly and took out his phone to text youngjo and tell him about their last minute date.

"nice! well have fun dating with your man" i teased him.

"shut up! " he blushed and laughed after.

"stand up class~" the monitor directed. "good morning mr.kim" we greeted.

"alright alright sit down, are u ready for your last paper?" mr.kim asked excitedly.

"yeaaaa~" we responded, in a quite lazy tone but still, we are ready to end this torture.

"okay now i will hand out the papers and you can start answering. goodluck!" he said.

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"answering time has ended" "all students please pass the paper to your front desk mate" mr.kim announced.

"okay you guys can go back home now~ have a nice semester break everyone!" mr.kim greeted .

all of the students in the class was packing their bags and head out of the school building. they're happy that its done so that they're free to do whatever they want. well so am i.

"aight dongju yaa, im going with youngjo now byebyee~" hwanwoong waved at me and walked out of the class.

alright so now i'm going to surprise niki! i hope he's still in class, can't wait to meet him!

people are slowly walking out of the class until its empty. same situation with niki's class. i hope he's still in there. i walked slowly towards his class and it looks like the class is empty.

"sigh, i guess niki left already" i thought. i was about to turn around and leave until i heard the sound of a chair or desk moved coming from niki's class. i walked closer to the class' front door and i saw a figure.  two figures.

its niki. with a girl. kissing. each other.

hearing the sound of heavy breaths and soft moans echoing in the class, i just stood there watching them, without any response, feeling like my heart was shattered into millions of pieces, the bracelet niki gave to me fell off my wrist which made a 'klink' sound. the both of them looked at me with a surprised and panicked face. i took a quick glance at their wrists.

they have matching marks. niki has two marks.

"d-dongju.... " he stuttered. he looked at me, we made eye contact. his nervousness shows in his eyes knowing that he messed up. my wrist suddenly feels so cold, so i grabbed it and looked at it.

my mark is gone.  my black rose mark is gone.

i looked at niki, without saying anything. the atmosphere was tense, the girl behind niki just stood there and stared at the ground, not wanting to make eye contact with me. 

so the girl knew i was his soulmate.

"why?" feeling so empty and heartless, i asked him with a monotone voice that i've never use on him before.

"i, i-......." he stuttered. i just looked at him, waiting for an answer, it's only gonna be a few more moments before my eyes will burst into tears.

"i'm waiting. just tell me, please. what was the reason?" i asked, trying to hold my tears from coming out.

" i'm tired with you. that's all " he replied, without feeling guilty at all.

" tired, ...... tired. okay , i get it" i said. i just turned away and started walking towards the exit of the school building, feeling so empty and emotionless. i just walked and walked , my vision is getting blurry , tears dropped, i don't know where to go i just, walked.

i stopped in front of a very tall building. i don't know what building it was but i went inside it and took the elevator and went to the rooftop. i walked towards the corner end of the rooftop and just stared at the beautiful sight of the whole city.

the world is so unfair. why does everything that i do has to be returned with something that would hurt me in the end? why? why must it be me?

niki , he's tired of me. i'm so useless, i shouldn't even live in this world, i shouldn't even be born in the first place.

" it's true , that you can't have two soulmates , but the thing is right now , the two person who has the same marks as you , their life depends on who you pick in the end " keonhee explained.

so niki picked her. haha. how unfortunate of me.

i changed my stare to the roads and the streets below me. i feel nothing, not even scared.

i just looked down, staring at the cars that was stuck in the traffics, the colourful traffic lights and lamppost, it was so bright and pretty, but all i feel was nothing. empty. numb.

nobody needs me. that is why. thats the reason i am hurt right now. its because i am not important. to anyone.

i closed my eyes, and took a step forward.

i'm sorry.

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to be continued...

hi my lovely readers~
hoping you guys had a great day today, hope you guys are doing good! today's chapter is truly heartbreaking for me, idk if i nailed it or it sucks lmao geez i don't really know how to write a fanfiction properly but i wrote this based on my feelings when i went through a problem of mine :) anyways i hope you enjoyed today's chapter, stay safe and take care! have a nice day ily all 🥰