yours || xion X leedo

the end <3

hi lovelies <3

so i decided to end this story i'm really sorry i can't keep it going on like this , and as i promised , i'll tell you guys the true story on what happened in my life.

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( pronouns for the ex bestie: they / them )

[ situation where dongju and niki were together ]

so when i was 13, a new kid transferred in my school and you know i was that type of person who really loves making new friends and so i approached them and talked to each other. we were in different classes but still, we tried to hangout together. i was their first close friend in that school, and so we got pretty close.

so our friendship started out very smoothly, no fights, everything was nice, but they never opens up to me. and so i thought maybe they're not the type to open up to people you know? and so i let it slide.

a few months passed by, they started to slowly distance themselves from me and i was a bit weirded out but i let it slide because idk i was too clueless at that time. and so i just knew that they had new friends in their class but i don't mind because you know they're a human too so nothing is wrong with making new friends.

i've been observing their actions for a while and saw like they're getting more closer with their new friends and started to always hang out with them instead of me. to be honest yes i do feel hurt and abandoned but i understand, classmates are easier to approach and hangout together with since they're always together. and so i let it slide.

so it has been months and they started to talk to me again, they apologised for not talking a lot because they were busy and i was busy too so i didn't really think that much. but one thing that i realised is that they're wearing a bandage on their left arm and so i asked whats the matter and they were like oh it's nothing, it's just a scratch. at that time i didn't know what depression was and what depression could do to people.

so 2020 came, and yeah we still contact each other we still see each other but we stopped hanging out because they were busy with their stuff and i'm busy with my own stuff so yeah.  and due to covid 19 thingy , school was closed and so we rarely see each other then. we only communicate through texts.

so uhh the both of us got into this groupchat full of online friends and yk we started to chat in there and do a lot of stuffs, it was great time. but as day passes by, they stopped reply to my texts.

and so i kept on asking them, hew whats the matter and stuff but they always left me on 'sent'.  so to this one day, i left the groupchat and didn't come back for a while. everyone was telling me to come back but i didn't want to because my ex bestie was still in that groupchat. i know, it was so immature of me.  and i said "i'm not important in there , *insert ex bestie's name* is more important." yes, i was so immature, i admit.

and so after i sent the text , they ( my ex bestie )  texted me and said "wtf is wrong with you" and stuff like that, and i said that i was being sensitive and emotional, i didn't know what i did wrong to them until they ignored my text and stuff, and they finally talked about what they were struggling all along.

they showed me a picture of their arm, full of fresh cuts and blood , which made me terrified, and they said that i didn't know what they were going through and they said that i was annoying because i kept on texting them eventhough they didn't reply. well it was because, i was worried of course.

i told them that why did they have to stop hanging out with me why did the had to stop sharing things with me. i mentioned that i was slightly jealous of their classmates that were always with them.