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Elli's POV

I'm writing another song because I got inspired by Julie and the phantoms. I keep forgetting that that's their name now. It's brilliant if you ask me but it just won't stay in my mind.

After Dad busted Julie for sneaking out when she was supposed to study, she finally told him about being in a band and how the boys helped her get back into the music industry. For obvious reasons she did not tell him about them being ghosts who have died 25 years ago. If Dad knew that, it would be a goodbye to the band and a hello to Dr. Turner.

Like the awesome Dad that he is, he was completely understanding and supportive. As long as she keeps him in the loop, he'll let her stay in the band. But that's not even the best part. Seeing as he stopped a manager from talking to them, he felt bad and arranged a concert garage party at our house. Of course he had help from Flynn. It's a very sweet gesture.

I got my inspiration for this song from this little concert or to say it in other words I got inspired by Julie and Luke's chemistry. You can't tell me there isn't something going on between them. I mean, just look at the way they're looking at each other. Especially when Luke was doing that specific riff with his guitar. I can't get that riff out of my head for the life of me.

At first it felt kind of off between them. It seemed like Julie was avoiding looking at or interacting with him. But after that riff and him approaching her they both got these infectious smiles on their faces. That moment was simply just epic. I don't know how else to describe it.

Now I'm sitting in front of my notebook about to start writing a new song. I want something like that with someone.

I don't wanna die or fade away

Truth be told, I don't want to leave this world without having brought an impact in it. And that is something I have yet to accomplish and I really hope that I'll be able to do so before someday there won't be a next try. For once I don't want to be sidelined. For once I want to be seen. Not just as Julie's sister or the girl who has lost her Mom. I want to be seen as me and not as someone I'm not.

I just wanna be someone
I just wanna be someone

I just want to be that someone for someone. Not a second or third choice. I want to be a first choice for someone. Is this too much to ask? Is this really selfish of me? I don't think so. As I have said- well thought to be exact- at Carrie's performance. Everybody deserves love. Everybody includes me, doesn't it?

Dive and disappear without a trace
I just wanna be someone

On the one hand I want to be seen but at the same time I don't want that. I don't like being judged. I'm scared of judgement. If you let people see you- the real you-, they can attack you and you don't have walls and facades to protect you. But I guess that's life, isn't it? Trying to enjoy your life and find people you can trust and open up to. If only it wasn't that hard to find someone to trust.

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