The Tail of a Wolff (UNDER MAJOR EDITING)

28. Amica mea

Stella sits behind the counter as I take out the bowl and scoop out my ice-cream. Mint flavoured, my favourite.

All the while, Stella just sits with a gobsmacked look on her face, her eyes nearing to tears. Not wanting to see her cry, I quickly turn around to take out to spoon from the drawer behind me. I leave the ice-cream tub on the counter as I walk around the counter. As I'm heading to the lounge she pulls me in, shoving me into a hug.

"W-what, I'm so sorry. H-h-what" she takes the bowl out of my hand as she bawls her eyes out on my shoulder. I awkwardly pat her back as I stand there... comforting her.

She cries out a muffled scream and my heart breaks, I dont want to be upset anymore. I've come too far.

"Stella" I shove her off my shoulder, keeping her at an arm's distance as I place them on her shoulders "I got over it okay? I went to see a psych for everything and she really helped me"

"Wynter this isn't something you just get over. I-I wasn't there to protect you" a sad look dawns onto her face "I-I failed you my child"

That broke my heart. What do I say to that?

I have no idea, so I just stand there. Watching my Godmother cry. I grab the bowl - my bowl - on the counter and slide it to her "will ice-cream make you feel any better?"

She looks at me incredulously "Why aren't you taking this seriously?"

I sigh and start eating my ice-cream "As I said, my psych was- is really good at her job. She recommended all these extra stuff, and meditation. The best part was going to this place where you just smash stuff. God, after I smashed dozens of glasses and other things to my heart's content, I felt so much better"

"Of course the pain didn't immediately go away, over time I learnt that, 'Acceptance is key'. The first few months were absolutely horrible though, but with lots of practice I was able to accept what had happened to me and move on. I also had a friend who helped me through it" I smile at the thought of Annabelle.

I add on to conclude my wonderful speech " you always taught me that you mustn't let your past define you or what you could be, that's what I did. I accepted my scars as they are and welcome them with open arms. Once I was able to let go of all the shame in my heart and truly forgive myself, I evolved"

"I want you to do the same thing. I do not want you to pity me, I dont need your pity. I want you to truly forgive yourself for it 'being your fault' - which is absurd by the way - move on. We have a baby to raise and if he looks like that ugly, fat shit then... it'll be hard at first, but he is still my child, my blood"

That was so cliche but it's true. I meant every single word.

Aunt Stel attacks me with another hug and I wince when the bowl painfully collides with my chest "Oh Wynter, you are everything I could never be. I'm so incredibly proud of the strong and mature woman that you have become. You have grown to accept the world and kick ass too"

I cringe at how she says 'kick ass', where did she even hear that?

"It will take a while for me to accept it but I will... eventually" I smile at her when we're face to face. I really do appreciate and love her for her efforts "But where is that bitch, I'll slit his throat while he's asleep and feed his dick to - "

My eyes widen "Woah, woah woah. Hold your horses, you mad woman" I think of the last I heard of Bob Dilly "he's serving probation and doing community service. I didn't press charges but the law punished him accordingly either way"

She crosses her arms and widens her stance "Why the hell wouldn't you press charges?"

"I'm getting my own revenge" I say and shrug. I've been transferring money from his bank account into mine when he gets a monthly salary. I also contacted his ex-wife letting him know he did to me, she didn't care about him. She apologized for me though and told me to keep her number in case I could do with a favour. Apparently, he had raped her too when they had been married, so to her it wasn't much of a surprise.