It's Not Goodbye, It's BRB

Chapter 18

I woke up the next morning feeling numb. I didn't want to get out of bed and face any of the boys especially Jc, I just knew it would hurt. I turned around and saw that Kian was still sleeping next to me, I couldn't help but smile - he was hands down the best person in my life.

"Mmmm morning" Kian opened his eyes slightly and stretched "How are you feeling?" he reached over and gave me a hug

I cuddled into him and laid my head on his chest "Kiki, I don't want to go down there."

"What you mean downstairs?"

"Yeah, I don't really want to face Jc. I mean I know it's stupid, and I should talk to him but I don't know - I'm scared"

"No need to be scared" he rubbed my back "But you do need to talk to him. I'll be there for you if you need me ok"

I smiled at him "Ok, thanks Kiki. You're really the best"

"The best...EVER?" he poked my nose making me giggle

"Ever" I rolled off the bed and walked to Kian's closet changing into some jean shorts and a hoodie before heading downstairs. I looked at my reflection in the mirror on the door, I was a mess. I sighed and went to the bathroom washing my face and throwing my hair in a bun. "Ok" I sat on Kian's bed pulling some socks on, I sighed "Are you gonna go down there with me?"

He hoped out of bed and quickly ran to his closet appearing seconds later in cutoffs and a tanktop, he shook his hair and winked at himself in the mirror "Of course" he grabbed my hand and we went down the stairs

It was about noon so I knew everyone would be up, or at least I hoped so. I felt like one of those kids that's going to a friend's for the first time and they just hide behind their mom the whole time, I peeked from behind Kian seeing no one in the living room. I heard hushed voices in the kitchen, Kian looked at me and nodded heading toward the voices.

"I don't know bro but he's refused to come inside, so he's just been sitting in the backyard." Ricky said

"I haven't seen him move" Sam leaned up against the fridge

"I don't know if I feel bad, or if I just think he made the right desicion" Ricardo said with his face in his hands

"Well, either way we should probably tell Kaitlyn and Kian" Connor scratched his head and went to leave the room.

"Guys?" Kian said walking into the kitchen still grasping my hand as I hid behind him.

"Oh good! We were just about to get you" Sam walked over to us giving me a huge hug

Connor walked up to me setting his hand on my shoulder "You ok?"

Apparently that was the question on everyone's mind, all of the boys' heads shot up and they looked at me. I sighed and leaned against Kian "I don't know guys, I want to be but I just hurt"

They all nodded and gave me the same 'I'm sorry' look. We stood there quietly for a while just kind of absorbing everything.

I creared my throat "Where is he?" I asked weakly

"He's out in the back." Ricardo said

I sighed an pushed off of Kian "Ok, well I'm gonna go talk to him"

Kian gave me a kiss on the cheek "If you need me, I'll be right here" he whispered to me as I walked out of the room

I smiled and stepped outside "Jc?" I looked around the backyard and didn't see him at first "Jc?" I turned and saw him slumped over on one of Kian's patio chairs, I slowly walked up and squatted by it.