It's Not Goodbye, It's BRB

Chapter 7

I tried to make the best out of the rest of my day despite holding back tears the whole time. I kept close to Kian hoping his great mood would rub off on me a bit, he has always been the first person I’d run to if I was upset. 

Kian wrapped his arm around my shoulder, squeezing it “ So you want to go out to dinner with me and the boys tonight?” he smiled gently at me. 

“Sure. Who all is going?” I asked looking up at him 

“Everyone aside from Jc and Ricardo.”

“How come they’re not going?” I thought it was weird Jc and Ricardo had opted out- it’s not like Jc knew I was going. 

“Jc said he wanted to start filming the new video for Thesedudez while they were here and tonight seemed like the perfect night.”

“Oh, ok” I was a bit defeated that they weren’t tagging along, but I guess I understood. 

We all begun heading up to the hotel room to get ready and I decided that if Jc was up there I would try to resolve whatever had happened between us. After our little scene he kind of just disappeared - Ricardo later disappeared but not for a while. 

I was the first one to the reach the room, I had assumed that the boys had gotten stopped by viewers or something. I quietly opened the door trying to listen for voices. 

“Jc, you can’t just keep running away from all of your problems like this - you’re not only hurting yourself but you’re hurting the people around you!” I heard an irritated tone coming from Ricardo in the back room. I quietly closed the door behind me and sat on the floor in the living room.

“I’m just scared ok!” Jc’s voice was shaking - it sounded like he had been crying, my heart broke. 

“What is it that you’re scared of?” 

“Getting left behind, forgotten, hurt, everything.”

“Everyone is scared of that - but with Kaitlyn that’s not going to happen.” 

“How do you know?!” Jc’s voice became slightly raised “She lives here and I live almost halfway across the country! She’s going to get sick of having a long distance relationship and go looking for someone else” 

“Dude, let me tell you something - when you and Kaitlyn went out last night Kian and Sam were telling us about how you were basically all she ever talked about. She would talk about how she could see you guys being that cute stereotypical couple everyone wanted - she’s also scared. Long distance relationships are hard, Sam told us she worried about that the most and that was why she had never told you how she felt.” I heard Ricardo sigh loudly “You’re not alone.” 

Jc then let out a broken breath “ I hope you’re right”

That was it, I couldn’t take just sitting here and eavesdropping on the conversation anymore - I needed to be in this conversation. I made my way out of the living room and down the hallway to where they were. 

“He is” I said when I reached the doorway. 

Jc and Ricardo both turned around shocked to see me “How did you - How long have you been there?” 

“In the room? About a minute. But I’ve been in the living room listening the whole time.” I walked towards the side of the bed they were sitting on and sat on the open side next to Jc.

“I’m going to let you two talk - do you know where the other guys are?” Ricardo stood up and headed towards the door. 

“Umm they were supposed to meet me up here but I think that they may have gotten stopped by viewers or something” I slipped off the bed and quickly ran after him “oh, and Ricardo” I grabbed him in a hug “Thank you” I whispered before letting him go. He offered me a sweet smile and continued down the hall. 

I sat back down, lightly setting my hand on Jc’s leg “But Ricardo is right - I’m just as scared as you, I’ve basically thought of every horrible situation possible in my head. I mean, I even had a meltdown about it in my head last night on our date. I didn’t think you wanted what I did.” I dropped my head and looked at the floor holding in my tears.

I felt his warm hand touch my cheek and lift my chin so he could look me in the eye - his eyes were red and puffy, he looked so vulnerable. He weakly smiled at me and wiped  the tears that had spilled from my eyes “I’m willing to try if you are”  

I just nodded and kissed him, honestly I was speechless - it was as if everything was falling into place. “Now let’s get you cleaned up and go meet the guys for dinner” I stood up and grabbed his hand going towards the bathroom. 

He didn’t budge though. “I don’t want to go out with them” he pulled me back down to the bed.

“But why not? We’re all here to have fun and hang out together more since we never really get to.” 

“Yeah but you know, me and you could have some fun together here without them” he looked at me with lust in his eyes. Next thing I knew my dress was on the ground and a shirtless Jc was on top of me.