Silence | Karlnap

Chapter 1

[Please remember Sapnaps real name is Nick, if Sapnap ever states he isn't comfortable with people using his real name I will only be using Sapnap. Also, THIS IS NOT SHIPPING IRL. This is just there characters. Shipping irl people is bad.]

Tw: Cursing

Karls POV
I wake up in the middle of the night, my room is pitch black. I grab my phone off my night stand, squinting my eyes from the bright screen.

I see 6 missed calls from Nick. I unlock my phone, and open my contacts. I attempt to call Nick back, he answers almost immediately.

"Hell-"

"KARL ARE YOU OKAY?! I CALLED YOU 6 TIMES! WHY WERE'NT YOU ANSWERING?!" he says.

"Calm down Nick, im fine. I was just asleep. What do you need?" I say tiredly.

"You scared me Karl. I wanted to make sure were okay."

"Im sorry, I didn't mean to scare you." I stare at the ceiling, spacing out a bit.

I begin to think about Nick, my head aches.

Why am I feeling this way?

He's my best friend.

Nicks literally straight.

He wouldn't appreciate me thinking this way about him.

"Karl, are you there?"

I hear Nicks voice in my ear, causing me to snap back into reality.

"O-oh, I was just thinking." I say.

My phone starts to buzz, its Nick requesting to face time.

Shit.

I accept the request. I don't show much of my face at all, I look like a mess.

"Awee! I wanna see your face Karl. Its not fair you get to see mine, and I cant see yours!" Nick says.

I move the camera to my face, "Okay, Okay. There." I say smiling.

"Yay! I like seeing your face." He says.
He likes seeing my face? My cheeks turn a dark red color.

"Am I making you blush Karl?" Nick says smiling at the camera.

"W-what? No. I was just thinking about something." I look away from the camera, flustered.

"Yeah right."

"Hey Nick, you know your not that far from me right..?" I say nervously.

"I mean I guess not, its only a few hours. Why?" he asks.

"I was wondering if I could visit you on Christmas. I know this is sudden, but Christmas is only a week away. I could come a few days before, if thats okay with you?" I question.

I fiddle with my fingers nervously, waiting for his response.

"Yeah that would be cool! I can send you my address."

I smile, I haven't met any of my online friends but Alex. I've been wanting to meet Nick for a while.

"Alright Nick! Im gonna go to bed now." I say waving at the camera.

"Sweet dreams Karl." He says ending the call.

I let out a sigh of relief, that didn't go so bad. I start thinking, spacing out. Reality slips away as I drown in my thoughts.

"Karl? Are you there? Wake up." I feel Nick shaking me, I see him. He's right there. I go to hug him, but he disappears. Hes gone. I yell out for him, but theres no response. Tears begin to roll down my face, I just want him right beside me all the time.

Im selfish.

Nick has other friends.

He doesn't like you.

He hates you.

Your too clingy.

TW: Suicidal Thoughts
I suddenly wake up in a cold sweat, breathing heavily. I curl up into a ball, my hands cover my face. I begin to cry. I just want to disappear. If I was dead Nick didn't have to worry about me. He wouldn't have to stay up late at night calling me, Making sure i'm okay.

[TW Over]

I hear my phone go off, its Nick.

'Heres my address Karl, you can come whenever. I wont be busy!'

I stare at my phone, looking at the message. I begin to type a response. I manage to type out 'Thank you.' and hit send.

I get up, and go to the bathroom. I stare at myself in the mirror. I look like a different person. My hairs a mess. I grab a comb and attempt to brush my hair down.

I brush my teeth, it feels like its been months since i've actually taken care of myself.

I leave the bathroom and go into my closet. I grab a new change a clothes, a multicolored hoodie, black pants, and neon green and purple socks.

I decide to go to the store. I walk outside, and enter my car. I look at my phone as I start up the engine. I message Alex and if he wants to stream later.

My my phone goes off.

'Hey Karl! Sure, what time?'

'Around 6pm? If thats okay with you.' I text back.

'Yeah sure! We can play some JackBox with Sapnap, and George.'

I read he message, the name Sapnap makes my mind go blank.  I start to remember the dream I had.

He hates you..

The words ring in my head..

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825 words.

Yay, this literally took forever. This is my first fanfic so yeah- Also Alex is Quackity  if you didn't already know.