Draco Malfoy has had an unhealthy obsession with Josephine Greengrass, the only Gryffindor in her family, ever since first year. Over his six years of watching her, he has hardly ever spoken to her. The year he gets his dark mark drives him over the...
Published 2/5/21 11:00 "I think you should leave."
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"Draco just talk to me." ꧁꧂ Draco's POV
Dear Diary, It's been 3 days since Josephine became truly mine and I still can't wrap my head around it. These 3 days of us being together have been the best days of my life. Each night we go on night time walks and kiss under the stars. She's been near Potter more than ever, but I trust her. Someone so perfect loving me someone so flawed. A death eater, the one who was tasked of killing the headmaster of Hogwarts. I've written about this already saying I know it's wrong and it's even more wrong we're together. I know it'll come to an end at some point, how could she stay with me after she finds out what I truly am? She wouldn't. It's only a matter of time before I complete the task or get killed. I haven't even been able to work on the cabinet, I can't stay away from her. She has this overwhelming effect on me, I've tried to work on the cabinet but my body won't let me do it. My voice won't mutter the spell anytime I get remotely close to the cabinet. I hate myself for putting her in so much danger but love her too much to not be with her. I know some people would say I obviously don't love her enough if I'm willing to put her in danger but the thing is I'm obsessed. I don't deny it, I truly am. I wish I could say one day we're going to run away to a nice, cozy, warm home and live happy together with lots of children but I know it's not true. She'll leave me once she finds out, and I know that for a fact.
I look up from my diary and stare into space. "Hogsmeade, next weekend." I mutter under my breath.
I have a plan. To give a cursed necklace to someone so they can deliver it to Dumbledore. Then I wouldn't actually have killed him myself. Maybe I could be happy with Josephine if I succeed. She wouldn't have to know it was me, but then again, I would be fully leaving Hogwarts.
I would love to go to Hogsmeade with Josephine next weekend, but I know she'll be going with her friends. If she doesn't they'll most likely walk in on us having a date.
A date.
Have Josephine and I ever had a date? Was stargazing and nighttime walks dates? Or were they just hangouts?
I was so deep in my thoughts that I didn't realize the knocks that came from outside my door until I heard that sweet voice.
"Draco?" Josephine said. I quickly hid my diary and opened the door.
"Josephine? What are you doing here? Someone could've saw you." I said while pulling her inside and shutting the door.
"I don't care." She laughed which made the slightest smile appear on my face. "Draco, I have to talk to you about something." Josephine said with furrowed eyebrows.
My smile faded instantly. "You want to break up? What did I do wrong? Please don't-" I started to say but she cut me off.
"No, just, I've noticed this year," She started while pulling me down to the bed to sit, "You haven't been yourself. You haven't been making fun of Harry or Neville or Hermione or anyone. Not that I want you to but you seem sad, off. Is there anything you want to tell me?" Josephine asked.
I instantly shot up from the bed. Death Eater. I'm a death eater. I'm danger to you. Leave me, you deserve better, was what I wanted to shout. I wanted to lash out, yell at her, hurt her for even asking that. She knows nothing and she won't until she has to.
"No." I said quickly. "Draco-" Josephine started. "I think you need to leave." I said looking down at the floor. "Draco just talk to me." Josephine said.
"No! Just get out! We've only been together for 3 days and you suddenly want to know everything about me! You've never taken any interest in me before! You've broken my heart many times without even giving it a second thought and now you want to know what's going on in my life?" I shouted.
Once I saw the look on her face I instantly regretted it. "Fine." She said while walking towards the door. "Wait, I'm sorry-" I said. "No, you don't want to talk, we don't have to." Josephine said and walked out, slamming the door behind her.
I wanted to run after her but my legs wouldn't allow me. Some part of me knew I needed to let her go but not this quick.
I stood there staring at the door my sweet Josephine just walked out of. Why did I feel that way? I wanted to hit her, why? How could I ever even think about that? I would never want to hurt my Josephine.
Why did I shout at her? Why did I say those things to her?
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I've already decided in skipping dinner. I hate myself even more than I already do. I can't face her knowing I wanted to hurt her.
She's the person I would never dream about hurting her, I want to keep her safe, but I thought about it.
I had an image of taking my hand and slapping her across the face until she felt the pain I feel everyday. It's not just draining me mentally but physically.
She'll never understand what I'm going through and I hope she never does. I hope she never feels pain but then again I wanted to be the one that caused her pain, and I'll make sure I never feel that way again. ———————————————————— Ooo honestly tea ☕️ Anyways Draco needs to get himself under control 🙄 Sorry I haven't updated in a while for my couple of lovely readers. I've been unmotivated to write anything. I'm not sure when I'll update 'Eleanor' for those of you who read it but please check it out! Kinda rushed but yeah. Love y'all please comment and vote!❤️
