Born To Destroy ( completed )

Chapter 25

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I picked this song because Taylor is trying to stay strong cause she hates feeling weak but she hates keeping her feelings in cause it's exhausting . Also because even though what Eric did was terrible it's a start to her letting her emotions show. Lastly because she seems open and outgoing but really she's only outgoing with battle and flirting and stuff of that sort but when it comes to her feelings she's shy.

I woke up and opened my eyes to see Jacob still fast a sleep but some how he still had his arms wrapped around me even in his sleep.

He looked so perfect it's like he was some kinda dream.

After I was done being a creeper and starring at Jacob the memory's from yesterday came flooding back.

I tried to wiggle out of Jacobs arms but it was no use even in his sleep he was strong.

" Where are you going? "

He asked in a sleepy voice that was so adorable it ALMOST made me smile.

" Sorry I didn't mean to wake you I just really have to pee "

I lied. I heard him chuckle

" It's ok "

He said then let me go I went in his bathroom shutting the door behind me. I looked in the mirror and for the first time hated what I saw.

My hair was in a curly mess, my eyes were puffy from crying and worst of all the bruises were now visible from Eric and it was clear that most of the bruises were also hand prints.

The thing was the bruises not only reminded me of what happened but also made me feel like he was marking his property.

I hated that.

Without any warning from my brain I started crying once again I sat down on the bathroom floor and just cried. I pulled my knees to my chest.

I hated feeling like this I had never felt this bad. I was always strong and I never let anyone see me like this.

I felt weak and useless.

I heard a knock on the door.

" Tay are you okay? "

I heard Jacob ask

" Yeah I'm fine "

I said trying not to cry while saying it but failed drastically.

Since there was no lock on the door he opened it and came in. I buried my face in my hands. I heard him sit down next to me and I knew he was starring at me.

" Talk to me.... please "

He pleaded

" You don't have to be embarrassed for crying its normal everyone cries every now and then even the toughest people"

" But I don't cry Jake I've always been strong and brave and I've never let anyone ruin that and I've never let anyone see me cry before if I felt like crying I would wait until I was alone because I was strong and now I don't even know when I'm going to break down and I don't know how to stop it "

I cried

" Tay I know this may be hard to believe but you don't have to stop it everyone knows.... what happened and they will understand and just because you cry doesn't mean your not strong or brave anymore it just means that your a little broken but everyone's a little broken just some are more broken then others "

I still was crying but less now and I put my head on Jacobs shoulder.

" How did I get so lucky? "

I asked myself out loud.

" I was thinking the same thing "

He said and kissed me on the forehead it got quiet and for a moment I thought I could fall a sleep but then he spoke up.

" We should probably get you to a doctor to make sure that those bruises aren't serious "

He said eyeing the bruises on my legs like they were the enemy.

It was clear me and him thought the same thing... that they were his marks and it made me look like his.

" But I'm to tired and plus I look like hell and I don't want people to see me like this "

" I think you look beautiful "

" You have to say that because your my boyfriend "

" Well yeah but I still think you look beautiful... I like you wearing my clothes "

He said blushing. He was so adorable

" I like wearing them too because their baggy and comfy and plus they smell like you "

He smirked

" I have a smell? Have you been sniffing me? "

I shrugged my shoulders

" Every guy and girl has a smell and you smell like cologne "

" You still didn't answer my second question "

" I don't mean to sniff you were just really close all the time and I have to breath you know "

He laughed and stood up. In my head I was panicking thinking he was leaving but then all of a sudden he picked me up bridal style.

" What are you doing? "

I asked yawning making him bite back a smile.

" Your adorable when your sleepy.. and I'm carrying you to the doctor because your tired and hurt and I'm your boyfriend so it's my job "

" And where in the boyfriend handbook does it say when your girlfriend is tired you have to carry her?"

" I don't follow a book I have more class then that and I have my own home made book in my head "

I rolled my eyes.

I didn't fight him for carrying me because he made me feel safe. I put my head on his chest as he carried me.

It's kind of ironic how I was made by humans and raised by vampires but I didn't fall in love with either of them.

Wait did I just say I was in love? Shit