Biancasbrokenbrother

If someone tells you to stop apologizing and you apologize again for apologizing so much, is that being defiant or traumatized? Asking for a friend ;-;

Lilu37362

@Biancasbrokenbrother Well like they said, depends on the situation, if seen this as a joke in a lot of literature and on tv. But ig it’s being scared and feeling inferior. Like something bad might happened, somebody might get mad if you don’t always apologise. Tho I think this doesn’t have to be because of trauma, it’s just a habit. It could come from trauma, but in my case I’d think it’s more because I’m always very polite when talking to authority figures. So depends on the person. I think that in most cases it’s not being defiant, this would only be the case if you deliberately chose to say sorry even though you were told not to.
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SOLANGELOCALEONO1FAN

@Biancasbrokenbrother I guess it depends on the situation? in my experience (no MY experience, but ya know)  its being traumatized, I guess? in a way it could be both? but I guess traumatized???
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Biancasbrokenbrother

If someone tells you to stop apologizing and you apologize again for apologizing so much, is that being defiant or traumatized? Asking for a friend ;-;

Lilu37362

@Biancasbrokenbrother Well like they said, depends on the situation, if seen this as a joke in a lot of literature and on tv. But ig it’s being scared and feeling inferior. Like something bad might happened, somebody might get mad if you don’t always apologise. Tho I think this doesn’t have to be because of trauma, it’s just a habit. It could come from trauma, but in my case I’d think it’s more because I’m always very polite when talking to authority figures. So depends on the person. I think that in most cases it’s not being defiant, this would only be the case if you deliberately chose to say sorry even though you were told not to.
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SOLANGELOCALEONO1FAN

@Biancasbrokenbrother I guess it depends on the situation? in my experience (no MY experience, but ya know)  its being traumatized, I guess? in a way it could be both? but I guess traumatized???
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Biancasbrokenbrother

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Tw:vent, sh, long as f*ck
          It’s late. I’m tired. My chest hurts, and I’ve spent the last 20 minutes researching and trying to convince myself I’m not touch-starved. I feel dramatic, I had a hug fucking yesterday. This is pathetic. Not to mention idk if I’m even going to post this because of how much of a self-absorbed “woe is me” asshole I sound like rn. I guess I’m just writing this for my own comfort and to see what I actually feel like. It’s really dark. Nothing I’m doing can distract me, and I feel like I’m going to relapse. Again. Fuck. Sorry to those of you who read all of..that; I shouldn’t be complaining. You probably have your own shit to do. Should I even announce this? I don’t know. It feels like if I do I’m basically just “asking for comfort”, and I’m being too needy. Why am I suddenly outing all my insecurities to whoever’s reading this? I don’t know, but congrats because you now know a lot more abt me than my parents do. Sometimes I purposely say concerning things that I genuinely believe, and hope really hard that someone notices. That someone shows they actually care. But that’s me being too much. Again. I know it is, yet I still do it. I need to stop, I’m yapping too much. Bye. (Shit, I just pressed ‘announce to my followers’, I’m actually posting this.)

Biancasbrokenbrother

*cries in yall are too nice but also I appreciate it actually so much* virtual hugs and love back to all of you as well, tysm ❤️
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Lilu37362

@Biancasbrokenbrother Don’t worry about being a burden. That’s what ur on the internet for. If people get annoyed they can just unfollow or not read it. But all the people that care will support you and listen to you yap. I really hope you’re doing better, even if it’s just a little, or just a small smile when you read our comments. Please don’t feel bad about it. Like I said if people don’t wanna know about it they don’t have to and you don’t have to know. You can just ignore each other, so all’s fine. As long as you still feel like sharing with others we’ll be here and we’ll be glade to reassure you as much as possible. 
            *sends lots of virtual hugs, love snd affection*
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SOLANGELOCALEONO1FAN

@Biancasbrokenbrother I wish I knew you so I could hug youuu but here *sending hugs through screen* ALSO U ARE AMAZING! believe in yourself and you could=d do so much! you already do so much. you're here. online. and that's enough for me. so don't pressure yourself too much. your amazing
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Biancasbrokenbrother

GUYS i was randomly searching for a short summary of Nico di Angelo’s life/trauma (don’t ask) and when i got to the wiki underneath species it said: Demigod, Dandelion (formerly), Corn Plant (formerly). 
          
          
          
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          WTH THAT’S FOUL LMAO
          
          Also sorry for the random caps lol idk

Biancasbrokenbrother

Its my b-day :D Also happy birthday Killua!!!

Biancasbrokenbrother

I watched it on Netflix with an adult account, but if that doesn't work you could try hianime or Crunchyroll.
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Lilu37362

Where did you watch it?
            I was on vacation and could watch in on Netflix in that country, but at home I can’t.
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Biancasbrokenbrother

@Lilu37362 Thank you! And its a great show, I hoe you enjoy it :D
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Biancasbrokenbrother

Hey guyssss- lol I just remembered something that happened when I was younger and ig I wanna tell you about it. You don't have to read this though lmao.
          
          Tw:vent,gagging.   Ok, so Idk how old I was, but ever since I was around 5-6 I started getting really picky with the food I ate. My parents did not like this, and chose to combat it in an...interesting way. One of these times really stand out to me, and it was one day at dinner. My parents were trying to get me to eat oranges. For context, I hate oranges. Both the texture and the flavor. So I managed to get down a small bite before running to the bathroom and gagging. I didn't throw up, per say, but I did gag pretty hard. After coming back to the table my mom was glaring at me and my dad told me to 'stop being dramatic'. Every time after that that I've eaten something I didn't like and gagged, I've been called dramatic and my mom said if I puked all over the floor/table then I would have to clean it up. So yea, um that's most likely the reason I hate trying new foods. I just want to know and genuinely confirm that's normal. Because I always thought it was, but looking back now maybe not..? Lol, please let me know!

Lilu37362

@Biancasbrokenbrother Omg I feel really sorry for you. That’s sounds horrible. I genuinely love trying new food. When I was little we had the rule that you had to try everything once and if you didn’t like something you had to say it politely and when at some other place quietly. But I was generally tight from a young age how to behave at the table. That is also bc my grandfather is a great cook and had big feasts from time to time. His new wife (who is in general a total ass and hates my mom for defending her mother and staying loyal to her since she also still lives with her and not her father and the new wife) is very strict when it comes to dinner etiquette.
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Biancasbrokenbrother

HELP ISTG IM GOING TO HELL
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          My brother just got bit by my dog ( she was having a bad time, and I had to listen to my dad rant abt how she should be put down ) and 5 minutes in he says "I NEED CRUTCHES!!!!" And then 10 minutes later "I DON'T WANT A FAKE LEG!!!".  
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          When I tell you I almost burst out laughing both times....On a more serious note tho, he's good now and there was a lot of screaming involved ( I have a sorta anxiety thing with screaming ) and I'm emotionally over stimulated so I needed a break so I came and told you guys ='D

Biancasbrokenbrother

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No offense taken even my mom says he has the pain tolerance of an...extremely small toddler. Anyway everything's fin now thx for being here he's fine now running around and annoying the shit out of me as usual 
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Trans-spooder-boi

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@Biancasbrokenbrother wait what the fuck
            seriously no offence but your brothers kinda a drama queen 
            also i hope you and your dog are okay here to talk :)
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