Sometimes
I stay up all night
Not happy not sad
Just there.
Unable to explain
Or understand
What am feeling
My mind blank
Thinking about nothing
Just there
Tired , yawning
At least I know am tired,
The only thing I can understand
Maybe it's loneliness
But isn't sleep
A temporary solution
To loneliness?
I don't know.
Even sleep has left me
Should I laugh or cry
Hey! Boys don't cry; remember?
What's worse,
I don't know whether this is bothering me
Or am ok with it
I feel like this is not me
Like am just some stranger
In my own body
Wait, maybe am possessed
I didn't even choose this
It came on its own
And it won't leave me alone
Am I even lonely?
I mean, I have loneliness itself
Haunting me through the night
