A faded memory {Completed}

Lust 5

I put myself in the position where I didn't know what I wanted. Jocelyn didn't love me, but Mal did. I wanted her, Mal was who I wanted. Jocelyn was a fling that I was ready to let go.

"Mal! Mal!" I Said Jogging to her as she got into the car. "Roman, what are you doing here?"
"I miss you!" I said nearly out of breathe.
"I was confused between love and sex. I wanted your body, I wanted your arms and kisses all on me. My hands wrapped around you at night because at the end of the day when I am sleeping with another woman, my mind is on you."
"Should have thought about that before..." she shrugged.
"Mal, I messed up because I was lost myself. When you were away, all I thought about was you. I don't like it when you don't call my phone or text me. I want you."
"Then you better start acting like it because I don't want any of your games. I would like for my daughter to experience a family, besides seeing her father only twice a week under my supervision. I don't like that for my daughter nor myself. I just loved too fast with you. Maybe it was just me wanting you since I haven't been loved like that for a long time, so it felt good having you too. It was just lust I'd say."
"Maybe it was for the both of us. But, damn Mal I want you every day, all day, and I'm willing to show you that I'm committed to only you."
"Oh? Really? Cool."

I stepped back from the car as she was getting ready to drive off. I watched her leave down the down road as I stood there confused. I couldn't process those words she spoke to me...lust? Did she feel anything for me?

After the back and forth with one woman to another, life had smacked me in the face.