A faded memory {Completed}

A love like this 2

After all this time, you'd think everything  was perfect. It sure was until I got a letter from Jocelyn. Not a text message or call, a freaking hand written letter through the mail.

"I've been thinking about this for so long...i don't even know where to begin....i think i should be straight up, so i have a son & he's yours...I'm sorry i waited so long, but i knew it probably wouldn't be right if I didn't tell you...IDK...I'm not asking for nothing of you, just thought you'd like to know we have a child. Until we meet again, bye."

I looked at Nyla who was playing on the floor trying to crawl. I have two kids by two different women and as I much as I hated myself for not using that damn condom with Mal,  I don't under stand how Jocelyn got pregnant.

Well...I know, but you know. But, it turned out that Jocelyn had stopped her birth control and didn't tell me. She wanted to get pregnant when I was over there messing around.

"Are you serious right now? You wanted a child? Why didn't you talk to me before, we could have worked something out. This is wrong Jocelyn and you know it. I was not aware of you being off of birth control. I would have put on protection."
"Please, this is your first child calm down."
"I have another child with Mal.....you so selfishly did this without thinking about her or me."
"I told you I didn't care when your face was between my legs. You didn't seem to care either cause you were up in New York with me for a month having sex."
"You don't do these types of things?! I admit I messed around, hurt Mal, and played my little games but one thing about me I'm going to buckle up my seat cause I don't want any unwanted pregnancies."
"Well, looks like karma got you in the ass this time. After all, he's my first born since he's a about an month older. I wish you would have told me because I would have loved to be there every step of your pregnancy. Especially being able to be there for my son."

If screw up was a person, it's me. How do I bring these two women together and tell her this? It was a moment of confusion and tiredness. I knew I would lose Mal this time for sure. Matter a fact, it was just a matter of time before she did.

I enjoyed every moment I spent with her all day and night for about a week before I told her.

Jocelyn and Mal stood face to face with nothing being said.
"So, you had an child before Nyla?" She asked.
"Apparently." I shrugged.
"So, what are you gonna do?"
"Mal, what do you think im going to do?"

There goes that look, that up and down look with a face that showed she was absolutely disgusted with me.

"What's his name Jocelyn?" Mal asked as she walked up to him gently rubbing his back.
"Joey Tyson."
"You gave him your last name?"
"You name is hyphen, but Tyson will be his main last name."
"Did you bring the birthday certificate? I can sign it."
"It's in his bag, in that folder."

Mal was awfully quiet as we sat on the floor letting the children play.
"What made you name him Joey?" Mal asked.
"Because I love kangaroos." Jocelyn chuckled.
"Plus, it goes well with my name. Jocelyn and Joey."
"Chasity, come here with here that. You have to sit, come sit here."

Chasity walks into my lap and ate her snacks.

"I know things are looking rough right now, but I want you to both know that I'm here for my children. Including Chasity because she's basically a step-sister to them. However, Jocelyn we have nothing going on. Just strictly Joey and that's it. I ran around like a loose dog and now I have two children. But, I love them and I respect the both of you. I just don't wanna lose Mal..."

She smiled softly at me and stood up. "I'm going to run a few errands. Will you be ok with the Kids?"
"Yes, where are you going all the sudden?"
"I need space."

Then she left.

Later on that night after a long discussion with both the mother's of my children, we were staying down here in Florida. Which meant Jocelyn had to go back up until she was ready to leave. She took Joey with her until then.

Mal was heartbroken...again I'd say. She couldn't catch a break with things in her life going downhill.
"Hey." I said wrapping my arms around her kissing her head. "We will be ok, this will not affect us. I'm just taking care of my son and my beautiful daughters to my best ability. I don't have anything going with her, just our son."
"I know..."
"This may not be the time for this, but what about marriage? Do you still see me as somebody you'd marry?"
"I don't know right now Roman."
I smothered my face in my hands in frustration.
"But, I know you are trying. Let's just wait awhile. I love you and I don't want to lose a good man like you."

She gently cupped my face and kissed me. I snaked my arms around her smothering her in love. "I love you, I love you so much." I said up against her neck.
"I know you do." She giggled straddling me. "Movie Night?" I said.
"Yea, I'll go get some snacks!"

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Even though my "family" didn't go as planned, I was still very happy and grateful for my children. As well as Mal putting up with more bullshit from me. I promised myself to just do my part as a father and a man to Mal. I wouldn't want to lose any of this.

"Hey, do you need a break? You have been in here for awhile now..." Mal smiled coming into my home office. "I think I'm ok, thank you. I've been busy with a lot business. I will take a break soon to be with the kids and Jocelyn should be bringing Joey over soon."

She smiled at me and sat on the edge of my desk. "Kids are sleep though." She pouted.
I laughed and cleaned my area up making room on my desk.
"Well, come on down here. Time for mama's daily dose of Roman."

Mal happily moved in front of me opening her legs.
"You came ready." I smirked.
"I sure did, I've been wanting you all morning." She moaned relaxing herself back on the desk.
I kissed her inner thigh and quickly made my way to her sweet spot. Mal was easy to turn on, so she definitely didn't care too much for role play. She wanted me inside her now.
"Roman, I want you baby."
"I know, but I like to tease you." I smiled pulling my sweats and underwear down. I opened her legs as I ran my man handle vertically up against her wetness.
I slowly put my tip in making her moan my name. I held her hands as my upper arms gently held her legs down as I drilled into her sweetness.
She loved it when I was in control because I would be able to fulfill all the love she needed.
I picked her up gently, Still inside of her, in control while I sat down in my chair.
She held my shoulders and bounced on top of me. We made intense eye contact as I sucked on her upper part of her chest. She moved her chest close to me putting them in my face.
"Easy on my nipples." She chuckled slowing down.
"I want milk too." I joked holding her waist and moving them all around her body.
"I love being on top, but I love it more when you're drilling me."
"Lucky you, this chair leans back." I bit my lip leaning the chair back and positioning myself to take control. I grabbed her ass pushing her up and began pounding her insides.
"Roman! Easy baby!"
"Shhh, you gonna wake the kids." I kissed her and continued on. She tried to muffle her moans in my neck, but failed miserably. She just ended up screaming and moaning in my ear as she pulled my hair like crazy.
"Fuck..." I groaned almost coming to my peak, but I wanted to make sure Mal finished first.
I stood up and quickly laid her on the chair pounding her even harder to the point she just screamed.
I didn't care how loud she screamed, but I was going to give Mal every inch of me.
I scooped her up and before I knew it, I had Mal on the floor in doggy style. I had a handful of her hair pressing her face on the ground and my other holding her body up. "Roman! Ah-please..." she cried trying to reach her hand back to ease off.
"Cum, I want you all over me."
"I can't take it no more! Baby!"
I flipped her over with my hands on her neck and pounded the hell out her. I felt her get so tight and cum all over me. Both of us out of breathe while I watched her body lay there twitching as she squirted a few times. I slapped her thigh and pulled out watching our fluids flow from out of her.
"You really fucked me on the floor..." She said out of breathe laughing.
"Screw that bed! I wanted that right now!" I joked making her laugh.
"I'm gonna be soooo sore!" She dragged.
"Damn right because we have another round. Lets get you to the bed because I'm about to put you in a lot positions."
I picked her and we made our way to the room. I was all over her and ready to dig in again.
"The only reason you're still here is because you have good dick!" She laughed as she sucked me.
"You know you love my affection too. Just for that you can choke." I laughed as I gently forced her face down making her choke.
"I'm definitely making you my wife."

I happily watched her as I gripped her hair enjoying every minute her mouth was drooling on me.