A faded memory {Completed}

Ocean deep love 1

After searching for weeks for a full-time nanny, I was able to remove that heavy load from Mal.
"The kids will be fine here. I'm sorry for making you handle three kids on your own like that. I should have been a better man and not let work take my whole day."
"It's alright." She smiled.

Sometimes it's hard to read what's going on with her and when I finally do, it bites me in the ass every time.
"Let's get you situated." I said digging into my pocket grabbing my wallet. "Here," I said giving her my card.
"Take it and spend it away. Don't you worry about the price. You know I always got my baby girl." I kissed her head as I gripped her waist. My kisses traveling down to her chest making her giggle. "Now, go on. My driver will be here soon for you. Get all pretty or whatever you do and just enjoy yourself."
"Why do I have to use yours? You think I don't have money?"

I swear she finds an argument for everything I do! Like if somebody handed me their card and told me to go max that shit out I wouldn't ask any goddamn questions. Stuff like this always made me mad in our relationship because what the actual fuck...
"For the love of God no. I try to give you the world and you find something to bitch about every time! For once, get off my damn back and maybe our relationship could get better. All you do is find something to argue about and I have to chase you down like a loose dog because you are stubborn. Just take the damn card and shut up."

I slammed the door shut and just decided to go back to my office to work. Now I have a guilty conscience over my damn shoulder because I yelled at her. God, why did I yell at her? It was just little things I try to do to help her ease her stress because she was working so hard with the kids, but she always finds a way to flip it around.

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Later on that day, I had dinner set up and the kids in their high chairs. I gave them their finger foods and juices to keep them quiet while I prepared Mal's plate.

"Here you go." I said placing it down on the table. "I'm not hungry." She said going to the kids watching over them. I grabbed her plate and ate without another word being spoken.

Fast forward a few weeks later, it was the same shit. She didn't eat anything I cook, we didn't talk unless it was the kids, and she stayed away from me as much as possible. I stopped trying to fix everything and this is what happens. She waited for me to come up to her and apologize then everything just so happened to be alright. I was breaking my back for our relationship and I let her walk over me.

I missed everything we had...Why could I just put away my bad habits for the sake of Mal? She had every right to be mad at me because I so selfishly ruined everything. This was karma and she was here to slap that smile right off my face. From all the messing around with different women, cheating, lying, and breaking women's hearts, I was now in that position where life wouldn't allow me to be happy. As they say, what goes around comes back around. You may be enjoying your life now, but karma will humble you when it's time.