Finding Mr. Right

Chapter 23

For the next few hours I read each letter he wrote to my family. They were mostly about what he was doing each day and hoping that we were ok. He always ended it with how sorry he was that he didn't stay with my mom and there must have been something he could have done. But we all know there was nothing that could have been done. Caleb had spent all of those years living with the regret of what could have been but there was absolutely nothing he could have done. She was too far gone for anyone to save even if the paramedics would have arrived on the scene right after the accident.

There was one last letter that was addressed to me in  an envelope. It was still sealed. I opened it up and pulled out the contents. There was a letter and a charm that my mother use to carry around in her car for good luck. The letter read as follows.

Katherine,

I know that I messed up really bad and should have told you everything from the start. But know that my feelings for you are real. I have never loved anyone before, that is until I met you and even then I made a mess of everything. I just want you to know how truly sorry I am for all the grief I have caused you and your family. I never meant for any of that to happen. I hope that one day you will forgive me but if you don't I completely understand.

I am enclosing something your mom gave to me on the night that we met. She said this was her lucky charm and she wanted me to have it. I couldn't tell her no because as you very well know your mom can be quite firm in her approach. I thought you should have it back because it belongs to you all after all and should be back in your family for safe keeping. This lucky charm got me through the last four years of my life and I am grateful she allowed me to borrow it.

Just know that you will always have my heart and I will never want anyone the way that I have wanted and needed you. These past few months have been the happiest of my life and I wouldn't trade them for anything in the world. Just having had a chance to know and love you will last me 10,000 lifetimes. I hope you find all the happiness you deserve and one day someone who is worthy of you.

Love always,

Caleb

My heart was breaking into a million pieces for Caleb. While my family struggled to pick back up the pieces of our shattered lives, Caleb was living in a state of what if for over four years now. I was so blinded by the fact that he didn't tell the truth sooner that I couldn't see how much he had struggled with this for so long. I had to let him know how I felt about him. I truly did love him and he loves me. No matter what brought us together we were destined to be. I had to meet him face to face and tell him how I felt and I could only hope I wasn't too late.

I got in my car and headed for Caleb's house with pure adrenaline running through my veins. I know I should have called him first but I didn't want be rejected over the phone if he decided that he didn't want to be with me after all. My eyes were still a little blurry from crying and I tried my hardest to keep my eyes focused on the road ahead of me. I soon came to the his small driveway and made my way up it only to be disappointed. His Jeep was nowhere in sight. I decided to get out and knock on the door anyway. But no one answered. Where could he be? It was already 11:00 at night and he wasn't one for staying out late. Panic began to set in and I decided to call his phone but he didn't answer. This could only mean one of two things he was trying to avoid me or something must have happened to him. Of course my mind went to the latter. What if he was stuck in a ditch somewhere and no one knew he was there. Or what if someone hurt him and he was lying somewhere dying. I felt completely helpless the only thing I could do was just sit and wait for him to come home.