Closet rats

15 Eliot

Now. I must be completely honest with myself right now. That was probably the best experience of my life, and i am so happy it was with Ben. He is so nice, and genuine and he doesnt try to play it cool, and he is opinionated but in a good way, so we can actually have an intelligent conversation with one another. He is so down to earth. Clair has told me many times that i fall to hard to fast, but i cant help it. He is perfect, and he doesnt even mind about not telling anyone i mean it would be annoying for him if he actually liked me too but he couldnt say anything! Do you understand?

But thats all stuff that i had to forget about for today because of school. I couldnt be showing any emotion towards him. Althoough...

Jack was walking towards Ben. Straight towards him. Ben didnt see him and accidentally walked into him.
"Look out fag! You trying to hit on me?!"
"Ew! First of all fag is short for faggot faggot is a pile of sticks. Also dont flatter yourself, no one would want to hit on a brainless piece of meat like you unless they were so drunk they couldnt tell the difference between an actual hot person and an hippo."
"What did you call me!" Jack grabbed Ben by the collar of his shirt and bunched up the other fist before i stepped in.
"Oye leave him alone!"
"What?"
"Um.. I just..."
"You standing up for gay boy here?"
"No i.. I... I just ment he isnt worth your time!" He looked from me to Ben, back to me, then back to Ben again
"Yeah i guess your right, he doesnt deserve the pleasure." And with that Jack dropped Ben and walked off.
"Ben you need to watch your mouth!"
"Im going to say whatever i want to thanks. You dont have to stand up for me if it means it will hurt your precious reputation."
"But i cant stand seeing you get hurt. But i cant step in every time! Please."
"I dont care about what i say, and i know why you cant step in, but its not my fault you are scared."
"Im sorry Ben. I want to i really do."
"Its okay. I cant be mad. Youre just too cute." He looked around and saw no one around and gave me a quick peck on the lips before dashing off.

He just doesnt care what people think, and i wish i could be like that too. I wish i could change my relationship status to in a relationship with Ben Connolly. I want to but i just cant. I relly way to much on popularity. But at least he understands. Thats all i need. Im gonna text him now and see if he wants to hang after school tomorrow while Kaleb is at football.

Me: Hey Ben, do you wanna come round tomorrow to hang? You could stay for dinner if you want?
Ben: Yeah sure, i should be able to make i :)
Me: Cool cant wait
Ben: Hay sorry for kissing at you at school. I couldnt help it...
Me: Nah its algoods, no one else were around. so as long as you are careful hehe
Ben: Okay dinner time gots to go <3
Me: Okay bye bye have a good meal <3