Closet rats

8 Eliot

So im really nervous about today! Ive showered twice, already and its only 10 am. I dont understand why though, because i cant have feelings for him. I cant, because if people find out, i will be torn to shreds and then eaten and i will then have to army crawl to the hospital let them stitch me up and leave the country and go to a small country and live as a goat herder with a beard longer than Dumbledore's. Im not exaggerating. Much.
But i cant not have feelings for him because he is so cute! And he is really nice! And he plays guitar like a hero! But the life of a gay guy at my school is just the same as hell. And for me even ,its hell. Because Dean said everyday you would torture someone, and then that person would basically regenerate the next day and he would torture them again! And thats what its like for me too, because i have to hurt Ben. Except i usually dont and i leave that up to jack, but i suppose its still hard. I know exactly how Dean Winchester felt. *Sigh*

I just started getting some food together, like chips and dip and party mix, when Kaleb walked through the front door with two 6 packs of Smirnoff Ice.
"One each!" He said as he dumped them on the kitchen counter
"Thank you so much Kaleb! How much do you need?"
"Oh its fine, its on me this time, this could be the first boyfriend my little brother gets a hold of!"
"Oh shut up!" I laugh. Kaleb takes a chip and dips it in the onion dip
"Did you make this?" He asked with his mouth full
"Yes i did, from scratch. Its for me and Ben NOT you!! haha"
"Okay im out, i probably wont be coming home tonight, ill crash at Finns" 
"Okay thats cool" And he opened the door. But before he stepped out he stopped, put his hand in the plastic bag he was holding and threw a box at me.
"Oh! Here, stay safe you crazy kids! Dont be a loner, cover your boner!"
"Jesus christ get out of here!" And he closed the door behind him. I turned the box over in my hands, and read the label. 
"Thinner than thin to keep it realistic. Grape flavoured condoms"
"Jesus. Thats disgusting" I said to myself and went and hid them in my underwear draw in my room.

A little bit later, i here *knock Knock* i open the door and see Ben! In this light i could see everything about him. His glasses were simply black and looking at me behind them were a pair of dark deep blue eyes. He had a small crack in his chin and dimples like Dan Howell.
"Hey!" He said happily "Im sorry im early, but i just had to get out of home, my mum was going cleaning crazy!"
"Haha thats okay, come on in. Please just ignore how nasty it looks in here, go around the corner there and at the end of the hallway is my room, just go straight in and ill meet you there." 
"Okey Dokey" He said, very cute like!