Closet rats

19 Eliot

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I gave him what he deserved. But... Did it go to far? No! He couldnt just say what he said without some kind of punishment. I mean i dont think it was fully broken. Oh my god. Its over isnt it. No no no! What do i do now? I know! Ill go to his house and apologize.

That didnt go that well...
I drove to Bens house and knocked on the door. His father opened it.
"Well you have a bloody nerve coming over here dont you."
"I am so sorry sir!"
"Yeah you bloody well should be! Youre lucky im not smashing your nose against the door."
"Please, i over reacted! I know that what i did was wrong. I just have to talk to Ben."
"Youre bloody right you did! Well you cant talk to him im sorry."
"Why not? Please just let me see him."
"He isnt here."
"Where is he? When will he be back?"
"He is with Paul at the HillView. I dont know when he gets back, i guess when the are finished."
"Finished what? Whos Paul?"
"Paul is his Ex boyfriend. Use your imagination."
Oh my god. I just turned and ran to my car. I felt like vomiting. He just left to go with another guy. Thats how he felt. He didnt care anymore.  He got over me like that!

I cant handle this. I need him,  I, I, I love him. I really truely love him. I didnt think that was what it is but i cant live without him in my life. Im going to call him. I grab my phone and call him
"What?" He answers
"Me what? What about you! Slutting yourself around!"
"Was this the only reason you called? To abuse me?"
"No! But you cant just go all sour."
"You nearly broke my nose! I think that would be a reason to get a bit sour."
"You nearly told Jack about us!"
"Well its not my fault that youre too afraid to be who you are! When are you going to accept the fact that you are what you are, and hiding it from everyone is just making it harder for you."
"I just. I want to put this behind us."
"No! We cant just sweep it under the rug and pretend it didnt happen Eliot. Thats not how it works. What you did is unforgivable and" I cut him off
"Oh and you sleeping with another man just because we had a fight isnt?"
"How do you know about that! And do you think im letting myself off for that? No. I feel like something has been ripped out of me. I loved you Eliot."
"Loved?"
"Yes. Loved. Youre not the person i thought you were."
"So. This is over?"
"I guess it is, because you couldnt be man enough."
"Please Ben. Ill tell Jack, ill tell everyone, just please dont do this."
"Im sorry, but you just cant do that. You will make up an excuse as to why you dont want to tell him."
"No please, i cant live without you"
"Well you did before i was in your life, so go back to that." And he hung up.